Stage 1, Day 4,
It's 9pm, I've been up 14 hours, I've done everything I wanted to do for the day, and then some, and I'm bored out of my mind!
My thoughts are a bit jumbled today, where I'm questioning what I want. The best example is with my wanting multiple sexual relationships, and thinking, "is that really what I want?". But I also think that it's because I've had to put so much effort just to meet and seduce ONE.
I'm using Tinder, and I've had only a few matches, and MOST of them were spam bots. In fact, I have yet to exchange words with a real woman over that site.
Meh, I have to find more to get enthused about and wait for bedtime. In the meantime, I think I'll buy and read some of BlackDragon's ebook.
EDIT: One more thing. Today, I was contemplating whether I was missing some major piece of the puzzle regarding being attractive to women and having sexual and dating success. Not out of insecurity or despair, more of a question of "unconscious incompetence"; that is to say if there's something I don't know, and I don't know what it is, then it would be virtually invisible to me.
It's 9pm, I've been up 14 hours, I've done everything I wanted to do for the day, and then some, and I'm bored out of my mind!
My thoughts are a bit jumbled today, where I'm questioning what I want. The best example is with my wanting multiple sexual relationships, and thinking, "is that really what I want?". But I also think that it's because I've had to put so much effort just to meet and seduce ONE.
I'm using Tinder, and I've had only a few matches, and MOST of them were spam bots. In fact, I have yet to exchange words with a real woman over that site.
Meh, I have to find more to get enthused about and wait for bedtime. In the meantime, I think I'll buy and read some of BlackDragon's ebook.
EDIT: One more thing. Today, I was contemplating whether I was missing some major piece of the puzzle regarding being attractive to women and having sexual and dating success. Not out of insecurity or despair, more of a question of "unconscious incompetence"; that is to say if there's something I don't know, and I don't know what it is, then it would be virtually invisible to me.
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