01-05-2015, 07:55 PM
@Dee; I write songs, normally on inspiration, but I chose to make a system out of it. And I've quit the memory system prematurely during the end of SM3 (lost all my motivation). So I'm taking it back up by going through each lesson with another member on this forum by email. I'm reading the Manual (a 160 book) to make sure that I understand the concepts. I'm running AM6, so it will get done, no excuses.
Stage 1, Day 2,
- My day started off very well; woke up at 7am, which hasn't happened more than once in the last 3 weeks. Got to the gym, read up on the manual of my memory program. Did almost everything I wanted to do. Only problem is that I'm leaking time.
- My singing is almost back to top notch condition; it's a softer (weaker) but still mostly in tune.
- I'm finding I've mostly resolved my feelings on 'intersectionality' (black vs. white, female vs. male), mostly by de-nominalizing and by deciding to not generalize. This isn't just a superficial change; I've been getting into Beyoncé's music, whereas before, I thought her one video was trashy, so I disregarded it for over a year. Looking past the single, I found really good stuff.
- I feel that I'm becoming a man that I can respect much more; I'm much more even keeled than last week, and my thinking has cleared up a lot. I'm laughing and smiling at dumb stuff (I like when that happens).
- My new phone is ultra compatible with Tinder, so I took a really good selfie, and added other photos. I haven't got many matches, probably because I had an old account with my black and white photo from 2+ years ago, so many probably swiped left before getting a chance to see my 'truer and more recent beauty'
. And what do I say when I match? "Hi."? But Tinder is quite addicting.
- To motivate myself, I have an image on my laptop of a beautiful naked white woman's chest, with these huge breasts (probably E cup) half covered in sprinkles (see: "titty sprinkles"). For some reason, it helps me focus, and the sprinkles avoid making it over-stimulating. This is sex transmutation in action.
Stage 1, Day 2,
- My day started off very well; woke up at 7am, which hasn't happened more than once in the last 3 weeks. Got to the gym, read up on the manual of my memory program. Did almost everything I wanted to do. Only problem is that I'm leaking time.
- My singing is almost back to top notch condition; it's a softer (weaker) but still mostly in tune.
- I'm finding I've mostly resolved my feelings on 'intersectionality' (black vs. white, female vs. male), mostly by de-nominalizing and by deciding to not generalize. This isn't just a superficial change; I've been getting into Beyoncé's music, whereas before, I thought her one video was trashy, so I disregarded it for over a year. Looking past the single, I found really good stuff.
- I feel that I'm becoming a man that I can respect much more; I'm much more even keeled than last week, and my thinking has cleared up a lot. I'm laughing and smiling at dumb stuff (I like when that happens).
- My new phone is ultra compatible with Tinder, so I took a really good selfie, and added other photos. I haven't got many matches, probably because I had an old account with my black and white photo from 2+ years ago, so many probably swiped left before getting a chance to see my 'truer and more recent beauty'
. And what do I say when I match? "Hi."? But Tinder is quite addicting.- To motivate myself, I have an image on my laptop of a beautiful naked white woman's chest, with these huge breasts (probably E cup) half covered in sprinkles (see: "titty sprinkles"). For some reason, it helps me focus, and the sprinkles avoid making it over-stimulating. This is sex transmutation in action.
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