01-02-2015, 11:50 AM
(This post was last modified: 01-02-2015, 12:13 PM by DarthXedonias.)
Stage 1, Day 31
Tomorrows my last day on stage one. So, I thought I would give a review of this stage along with some of the things that have been going on this week.
Internal Results:
*Increased social Confidence
*Increased Optimism about the future
*Decreased Social Anxiety
*Increase in comfort in different social settings
*Think about women more
*Noticing in past meetings with women of how I messed up by coming across as too "needy"
*This feeling and confidence that by the end of this program I will be able to get any woman I want
*Increase in Sex drive
* Increase in annoyance towards BS from others, especially women
*Lots of dreams that are actually easy to interpret unlike Alpha where they were more hit or miss in that regard
Outer Results:
*Increase in people trying to talk to me
*People doing stuff for me and helping me out
*Certain women talking to me more
*A response to my POF profile after 2 years of nothing.
*Increase in people trying to get me to go to Social Outings
A lot of this last week has been filled with a lot of contemplation. Most of that contemplation has been about what type of women I'm looking for, BS from individuals and society in general, and what I really want to study in college for the next couple of years.
On the women front, I've said before in my AM6 journal on how I want more of a Submissive women now. I still want that after going through this first stage of WM but on top of that I feel like I want a Catering type of woman. I've seen these Submissive/Catering type of woman. The best example of this that I remember is a Navy friend of mine who married a Filipina woman while I was stationed in Hawaii. She literally lets him do "whatever" he wants. If he wants to go hang out with friends shes totally ok with it. If hes playing video games, she doesn't mind at all. She does her own thing and lets him do the same with no nagging. At the same time she makes breakfast, lunch, and dinner. He also gets Sex on demand or she initiates it pretty "often". She mainly follows his lead,lets him be the leader of the relationship and supports him. All she asks for really is appreciation and respect in return. I Feel like this is my ideal type of relationship where the woman lets the man concentrate on leading and "empire" building while at the same time offering him support and sex at a moments notice. I'm hoping to get this type of woman when I run the AYP subs in early 2016. Until then, I've pretty much decided I will have FWBs throughout my runs of WM and SM with older women (late Twenties/early to mid thirties). I've come to the conclusion that i'm more interested in the Confidence and maturity I see in older women than a lot of the immaturity and games I see with younger women. Not that older women can't play games as well, but It seems less likely. On a similar note, I came across this Ted talk about Desire in long term relationships. I have to say, while I watched it some of the the stuff she talked about I felt like was touched upon in AM6, especially when she talks about people expecting way too much from relationships these days and being too "needy" which kills desire.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=sa0RUmGTCYY
On the BS front, I've noticed the last week of this stage has increased my dislike of BS from people, especially women, like in AM6. One things that I've definitely been feeling agitated about is with dealing with responses from telling people about the subs. The responses have been either to (1) not believe that subs work, or (2) find excuses not to use them. Its mostly been response number two that has agitated me the most because what I find is these people after I just showed them a way get rid of a lot of their issues in life they just make a excuse on why not to do it and then proceed to complain to me about how bad their situations are. I dragged a horse ,that complained it was thirsty, to the lake and instead of drinking kept complaining on how thirsty it was. My whole idea is if you have a problem, and I show you how to get rid of it completely and you decline to do it you have no right to come complaining to me about your problems. Its like these people get a wound and instead of wanting it healed they just want someone to put a band aid ( external Emotional support/Validation) over it every once in a while. I do feel like society in general supports this kinda of thinking with the whole "they don't want someone to fix their problems they just want someone to emotionally support them/ listen to them without judgement" idea. Essentially, don't ever really solve the problem just put a band aid over the wound when they ask for it. Don't even try to talk about self-validation or being emotionally stable from the inside. After getting over these traits myself, courtesy of AM6 and extended by WM, I don't tolerate this behavior in myself and really don't tolerate this in people around me anymore. I will still offer to help people but I'm not going to drag them "kicking and screaming" to get their life together.
On a similar note, I had to deal with a very needy acquaintance of mine this week. Back story, as some of you know I play the MMO FFXIV. Well, I've been hanging around and talking in Teamspeak with this certain group of people. There pretty cool overall. Anyway this one guy was part of the group and seemed pretty cool to be around "until" he met this one girl who was in the same guild. Long story short, after he started falling for her he only spent time with her, did things she wanted to do and only talked to people who were close to her. I was disappointed in this but just said "whatever" though it upsetted people who knew him longer ( some who knew him for 15 months about). Anyway, before this he wasn't motivated to do much (finish his GED, get his driver's license, etc). But as soon as he figured it would help his standing with her parents he started doing all these things. Eventually though what happened this week was apparently that this chick's brother decided to leave the guild to do his own thing, then she followed him, and then the guy (like some loyal puppy) followed her. Mind you hes was one of the leaders in this group and had practically said that people in that group were like "family to him". Yet he stopped talking to those same people and left them as soon as some woman even hinted at offering him some. Don't even get me started on how hes only known her for 3 months and is already talking about marriage to a woman he hasn't even met in real life. It really shames me at how desperate and needy some guys are =(
Finally, on the college front I've decided i'm probably going to pursue something I really like and I feel like I would be able to use outside of job. I'm probably going to major in kinesiology along with a Minor in another Language (will probably be Japanese, Russian, or Arabic). I want something with personal long term benefits (fitness in this case), want to concentrate mostly on martial arts, and I can't really see myself work in a office space or anything in doors (done it before and really didn't enjoy it). Though to be honest, If I ever meet a woman from doing the "manifest your perfect financial wealthy romantic love program" I will probably move to Thailand for a while so I can study Muay Thai kick boxing extensively(at least that's one of the martial arts I'm considering). I've always heard it said that there is 3 ways to wealth generally. You either (1) build a successful business, (2) get very good at investing, or (3) Marry into a wealthy family (like most Politicians). I'm not really interested in running a business honestly even though BASE still sounds pretty awesome from the bullet points. I use to be into investing a while back but now not so much, though if there ever was a 5G investing program I would definitely get back into it. That kinda of leaves the third option which I'm really not against as long as the relationship is good in other areas besides finances. Besides, My mentality with wealth isn't so much concerned with being able to buy fancy stuff all the time. It has more to do with having my basics covered (housing, food, etc) so I can concentrate more on more important stuff (mainly what I "want" to do since my needs are taken care of). I also know some guys have this hang up about being with/ or married to a female that makes more than them which I don't quite understand. As long as the relationship is healthy in other aspects I don't see what the problem is.
Tomorrows my last day on stage one. So, I thought I would give a review of this stage along with some of the things that have been going on this week.
Internal Results:
*Increased social Confidence
*Increased Optimism about the future
*Decreased Social Anxiety
*Increase in comfort in different social settings
*Think about women more
*Noticing in past meetings with women of how I messed up by coming across as too "needy"
*This feeling and confidence that by the end of this program I will be able to get any woman I want
*Increase in Sex drive
* Increase in annoyance towards BS from others, especially women
*Lots of dreams that are actually easy to interpret unlike Alpha where they were more hit or miss in that regard
Outer Results:
*Increase in people trying to talk to me
*People doing stuff for me and helping me out
*Certain women talking to me more
*A response to my POF profile after 2 years of nothing.
*Increase in people trying to get me to go to Social Outings
A lot of this last week has been filled with a lot of contemplation. Most of that contemplation has been about what type of women I'm looking for, BS from individuals and society in general, and what I really want to study in college for the next couple of years.
On the women front, I've said before in my AM6 journal on how I want more of a Submissive women now. I still want that after going through this first stage of WM but on top of that I feel like I want a Catering type of woman. I've seen these Submissive/Catering type of woman. The best example of this that I remember is a Navy friend of mine who married a Filipina woman while I was stationed in Hawaii. She literally lets him do "whatever" he wants. If he wants to go hang out with friends shes totally ok with it. If hes playing video games, she doesn't mind at all. She does her own thing and lets him do the same with no nagging. At the same time she makes breakfast, lunch, and dinner. He also gets Sex on demand or she initiates it pretty "often". She mainly follows his lead,lets him be the leader of the relationship and supports him. All she asks for really is appreciation and respect in return. I Feel like this is my ideal type of relationship where the woman lets the man concentrate on leading and "empire" building while at the same time offering him support and sex at a moments notice. I'm hoping to get this type of woman when I run the AYP subs in early 2016. Until then, I've pretty much decided I will have FWBs throughout my runs of WM and SM with older women (late Twenties/early to mid thirties). I've come to the conclusion that i'm more interested in the Confidence and maturity I see in older women than a lot of the immaturity and games I see with younger women. Not that older women can't play games as well, but It seems less likely. On a similar note, I came across this Ted talk about Desire in long term relationships. I have to say, while I watched it some of the the stuff she talked about I felt like was touched upon in AM6, especially when she talks about people expecting way too much from relationships these days and being too "needy" which kills desire.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=sa0RUmGTCYY
On the BS front, I've noticed the last week of this stage has increased my dislike of BS from people, especially women, like in AM6. One things that I've definitely been feeling agitated about is with dealing with responses from telling people about the subs. The responses have been either to (1) not believe that subs work, or (2) find excuses not to use them. Its mostly been response number two that has agitated me the most because what I find is these people after I just showed them a way get rid of a lot of their issues in life they just make a excuse on why not to do it and then proceed to complain to me about how bad their situations are. I dragged a horse ,that complained it was thirsty, to the lake and instead of drinking kept complaining on how thirsty it was. My whole idea is if you have a problem, and I show you how to get rid of it completely and you decline to do it you have no right to come complaining to me about your problems. Its like these people get a wound and instead of wanting it healed they just want someone to put a band aid ( external Emotional support/Validation) over it every once in a while. I do feel like society in general supports this kinda of thinking with the whole "they don't want someone to fix their problems they just want someone to emotionally support them/ listen to them without judgement" idea. Essentially, don't ever really solve the problem just put a band aid over the wound when they ask for it. Don't even try to talk about self-validation or being emotionally stable from the inside. After getting over these traits myself, courtesy of AM6 and extended by WM, I don't tolerate this behavior in myself and really don't tolerate this in people around me anymore. I will still offer to help people but I'm not going to drag them "kicking and screaming" to get their life together.
On a similar note, I had to deal with a very needy acquaintance of mine this week. Back story, as some of you know I play the MMO FFXIV. Well, I've been hanging around and talking in Teamspeak with this certain group of people. There pretty cool overall. Anyway this one guy was part of the group and seemed pretty cool to be around "until" he met this one girl who was in the same guild. Long story short, after he started falling for her he only spent time with her, did things she wanted to do and only talked to people who were close to her. I was disappointed in this but just said "whatever" though it upsetted people who knew him longer ( some who knew him for 15 months about). Anyway, before this he wasn't motivated to do much (finish his GED, get his driver's license, etc). But as soon as he figured it would help his standing with her parents he started doing all these things. Eventually though what happened this week was apparently that this chick's brother decided to leave the guild to do his own thing, then she followed him, and then the guy (like some loyal puppy) followed her. Mind you hes was one of the leaders in this group and had practically said that people in that group were like "family to him". Yet he stopped talking to those same people and left them as soon as some woman even hinted at offering him some. Don't even get me started on how hes only known her for 3 months and is already talking about marriage to a woman he hasn't even met in real life. It really shames me at how desperate and needy some guys are =(
Finally, on the college front I've decided i'm probably going to pursue something I really like and I feel like I would be able to use outside of job. I'm probably going to major in kinesiology along with a Minor in another Language (will probably be Japanese, Russian, or Arabic). I want something with personal long term benefits (fitness in this case), want to concentrate mostly on martial arts, and I can't really see myself work in a office space or anything in doors (done it before and really didn't enjoy it). Though to be honest, If I ever meet a woman from doing the "manifest your perfect financial wealthy romantic love program" I will probably move to Thailand for a while so I can study Muay Thai kick boxing extensively(at least that's one of the martial arts I'm considering). I've always heard it said that there is 3 ways to wealth generally. You either (1) build a successful business, (2) get very good at investing, or (3) Marry into a wealthy family (like most Politicians). I'm not really interested in running a business honestly even though BASE still sounds pretty awesome from the bullet points. I use to be into investing a while back but now not so much, though if there ever was a 5G investing program I would definitely get back into it. That kinda of leaves the third option which I'm really not against as long as the relationship is good in other areas besides finances. Besides, My mentality with wealth isn't so much concerned with being able to buy fancy stuff all the time. It has more to do with having my basics covered (housing, food, etc) so I can concentrate more on more important stuff (mainly what I "want" to do since my needs are taken care of). I also know some guys have this hang up about being with/ or married to a female that makes more than them which I don't quite understand. As long as the relationship is healthy in other aspects I don't see what the problem is.
"I have no use of disciples. Let everyone be their own true follower" - Nietzsche
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