12-16-2014, 06:06 AM
Day 30
I took a couple of steps backward durning my days off. I don't get near as much exposure due to family demands.
For the most part, I have been feeling calm and happy. But tired at the same time. For some unexplicable reason, my mother can ruin it in minutes.
Background on mom
73 years old. Has lived with us for the past 10 years. Since retiring she is extremely needy and does nothing but lay in her bed and either watch tv, play on her ipad or sleep.
When I get home, mom wants to tell me all about my brothers and sister, all either recovering (or not) drug addicts, her aches and pains and all about what is going on with the dogs (this really doesn't change much, but I get to hear about it daily). If there is anything she needs done, I need to spend hours on the computer helping her "because she can't find it on her tablet". Incidentally, why is that once people become elderly they regress to being teenagers? I have to turn off lights behind her, clean up behind her and, best of all, she blames my 14 year old for stuff that I know she does. I know that she wants attention but it get difficult to cope with
On the other hand, I daily, work 10 hour days with an hour and a half total commute, cook dinner, make lunches, pick up the house and keep my foot up my 14 year old sons rear on a daily. Plus throw in the errands that need run and serious cleaning to be done on the days off. To top it off, my schedule is very erratic with 3 different start times, this does not allow for a set sleep schedule.
But, I guess that I can say that I can see some improvement from the sub while dealing with this. I have not taken any Xanax and no alcohol to cope as I was doing this time last year. Yeah Me!!
Vent time over. Sorry guys. I am just feeling overwhelmed. Getting back on schedule today. Cant wait to get my happy back!!
I took a couple of steps backward durning my days off. I don't get near as much exposure due to family demands.
For the most part, I have been feeling calm and happy. But tired at the same time. For some unexplicable reason, my mother can ruin it in minutes.
Background on mom
73 years old. Has lived with us for the past 10 years. Since retiring she is extremely needy and does nothing but lay in her bed and either watch tv, play on her ipad or sleep.
When I get home, mom wants to tell me all about my brothers and sister, all either recovering (or not) drug addicts, her aches and pains and all about what is going on with the dogs (this really doesn't change much, but I get to hear about it daily). If there is anything she needs done, I need to spend hours on the computer helping her "because she can't find it on her tablet". Incidentally, why is that once people become elderly they regress to being teenagers? I have to turn off lights behind her, clean up behind her and, best of all, she blames my 14 year old for stuff that I know she does. I know that she wants attention but it get difficult to cope with
On the other hand, I daily, work 10 hour days with an hour and a half total commute, cook dinner, make lunches, pick up the house and keep my foot up my 14 year old sons rear on a daily. Plus throw in the errands that need run and serious cleaning to be done on the days off. To top it off, my schedule is very erratic with 3 different start times, this does not allow for a set sleep schedule.
But, I guess that I can say that I can see some improvement from the sub while dealing with this. I have not taken any Xanax and no alcohol to cope as I was doing this time last year. Yeah Me!!
Vent time over. Sorry guys. I am just feeling overwhelmed. Getting back on schedule today. Cant wait to get my happy back!!
