12-10-2014, 01:50 PM
It will be 4 weeks of usage every night this Saturday.
I have been having soooo many dreams in one night, I wake up feeling like I have been living other life's!...I tell you what, it makes up for all the adventures I am lacking in my awake reality.
I only mainly listen whilst I am asleep but there is days I listen in the day, but it brings up a lot of anxiety around my heart area, very consistent in nature, even if I am not worried about anything.
I now know when I feel the resistance, I know the feeling now and I know EPRHA is working on something and it will pass eventually.
Lately I just wish I could run away and start a new life from scratch. New everything.
My dreams taunt me, by living amazing adventures, amazing experiences, with amazing angelic like people, where I experience no negativity, no judgement of myself nor others, no self criticism, nor criticism of others. Just perfect worlds and I am going about living it, experiencing it, loving it....
I then wake up... and I realize my life is not like that and I wish my life could be like my dreams.... it hurts, you know.
To know so much beauty in my dreams and then wake up, it sucks ass.
My emotions are like a yo yo, what gives me hope is this sub clearing out the garbage that prevents me being and living the life I want. If I did not have fears, guilt's and regrets that stop me, maybe I could move towards that. I want to move towards that awesome feelings I experience in my dreams... I don't know why my dreams treat me like that....
At least I look forward to going a sleep at night.
I want a new life, everything. But at the same time, I have regrets of the past that I left for the present I want to now change.
I have been looking for types of careers I could go and do, I wish there was one where I could just get up and go, live on a ship..etc.
I tried army, royal marines..etc when I was younger but medical history prevented me from joining, I a glad in one way, because I don't believe in certain this about all that, but the feeling of being able to join something, get full training, get paid and not have to spend money on things that I don't need, which would just build up and pay for all my debts.
I want to be free, I don't want limitations, or debts, or restrictions. I have learned from my mistakes of the past and I would not get my self into debt ever again, nor make commitments out of fear, insecurity, immaturity. I have learned my lesson, I understand.
Please I would do anything to feel that free like in my dreams, in my awake life.
I have hope things will change and I can't wait to see how things change from 6 months to 1 year of EPRHA.
I want to be free, I want to have no limitations or restrictions, I want to be independent, mature and emotional healthy, I want to be the person that I want to be and live the life that I want to live, free from fear, or guilt, or regret.
I have been having soooo many dreams in one night, I wake up feeling like I have been living other life's!...I tell you what, it makes up for all the adventures I am lacking in my awake reality.
I only mainly listen whilst I am asleep but there is days I listen in the day, but it brings up a lot of anxiety around my heart area, very consistent in nature, even if I am not worried about anything.
I now know when I feel the resistance, I know the feeling now and I know EPRHA is working on something and it will pass eventually.
Lately I just wish I could run away and start a new life from scratch. New everything.
My dreams taunt me, by living amazing adventures, amazing experiences, with amazing angelic like people, where I experience no negativity, no judgement of myself nor others, no self criticism, nor criticism of others. Just perfect worlds and I am going about living it, experiencing it, loving it....
I then wake up... and I realize my life is not like that and I wish my life could be like my dreams.... it hurts, you know.
To know so much beauty in my dreams and then wake up, it sucks ass.
My emotions are like a yo yo, what gives me hope is this sub clearing out the garbage that prevents me being and living the life I want. If I did not have fears, guilt's and regrets that stop me, maybe I could move towards that. I want to move towards that awesome feelings I experience in my dreams... I don't know why my dreams treat me like that....
At least I look forward to going a sleep at night.
I want a new life, everything. But at the same time, I have regrets of the past that I left for the present I want to now change.
I have been looking for types of careers I could go and do, I wish there was one where I could just get up and go, live on a ship..etc.
I tried army, royal marines..etc when I was younger but medical history prevented me from joining, I a glad in one way, because I don't believe in certain this about all that, but the feeling of being able to join something, get full training, get paid and not have to spend money on things that I don't need, which would just build up and pay for all my debts.
I want to be free, I don't want limitations, or debts, or restrictions. I have learned from my mistakes of the past and I would not get my self into debt ever again, nor make commitments out of fear, insecurity, immaturity. I have learned my lesson, I understand.
Please I would do anything to feel that free like in my dreams, in my awake life.
I have hope things will change and I can't wait to see how things change from 6 months to 1 year of EPRHA.
I want to be free, I want to have no limitations or restrictions, I want to be independent, mature and emotional healthy, I want to be the person that I want to be and live the life that I want to live, free from fear, or guilt, or regret.
