Nov 30
For the record I've missed 2 days and I will make up for them. I've averaged 8 hours a day. I listen mainly while I sleep, which is 6 or 7 hours at times. There are days were I total 9-12 hours of exposure hence the average. I dislike that I haven't gotten a minimum of 8 hours/day of exposure and I've thought about adding up the hours in which I fell short of hitting 8 and adding however many days they total to the 2 days I already have to make up for. Thoughts?
I've also considered restarting Stage 1 but that seems excessive.
On to the day:
I experienced a high and a low that I'd like to share.
First the low. I was driving home after work and started to feel really down thinking about how sexually frustrated I am and why. I have a friend whose comfortable with his body, sexual ability, and is talented at attracting partners for casual sex. I want the aforementioned so bad but I deprive myself because I'm so self-conscious. For this reason, I'm inexperienced, which adds to the matter. And it's hard to deal with this at 28; feeling like I missed out on so much. What I want most out of AM6 is for my self-image to skyrocket, to generate my own validation, and to let go of the past.
The high. I was swiping through Tinder and stumbled across a hot girl. Hot girls usually make me feel bad about myself, as feelings of unworthiness, inadequacy, and inexperience arise. Not with this one. I chose to feel empowered and in doing so, realized that my usual response is also a choice, albeit automatic (at least seemingly so). I thought hey I can feel like a boss and rock her world and not give a f**k. I'm glad that these thoughts and feelings are knocking on the door and I wonder how much of an impact AM6 has had considering it's still stage 1.
For the record I've missed 2 days and I will make up for them. I've averaged 8 hours a day. I listen mainly while I sleep, which is 6 or 7 hours at times. There are days were I total 9-12 hours of exposure hence the average. I dislike that I haven't gotten a minimum of 8 hours/day of exposure and I've thought about adding up the hours in which I fell short of hitting 8 and adding however many days they total to the 2 days I already have to make up for. Thoughts?
I've also considered restarting Stage 1 but that seems excessive.
On to the day:
I experienced a high and a low that I'd like to share.
First the low. I was driving home after work and started to feel really down thinking about how sexually frustrated I am and why. I have a friend whose comfortable with his body, sexual ability, and is talented at attracting partners for casual sex. I want the aforementioned so bad but I deprive myself because I'm so self-conscious. For this reason, I'm inexperienced, which adds to the matter. And it's hard to deal with this at 28; feeling like I missed out on so much. What I want most out of AM6 is for my self-image to skyrocket, to generate my own validation, and to let go of the past.
The high. I was swiping through Tinder and stumbled across a hot girl. Hot girls usually make me feel bad about myself, as feelings of unworthiness, inadequacy, and inexperience arise. Not with this one. I chose to feel empowered and in doing so, realized that my usual response is also a choice, albeit automatic (at least seemingly so). I thought hey I can feel like a boss and rock her world and not give a f**k. I'm glad that these thoughts and feelings are knocking on the door and I wonder how much of an impact AM6 has had considering it's still stage 1.