11-26-2014, 11:20 PM
Stage 5, Day 30,
Again with the emotionally shaky ground; it happened for most of the day. Couldn't look people in the eye without getting emotional. It left for a bit, but it's come back as I type this. Lots to clear on!
Here and there, there are things that have me bouncing with joy, and then it quietly goes back to this feeling of being down.
I had classes, and then my program organized a graduation photoshoot with pro photographers. I couldn't really stare into the camera without having some emotion going on. The second round, it was much better.
Feeling good for no reason can a difficult thing if you've let negative thought patterns take over in the past. Getting rid of those will make it all happen. But feeling good for no reason is the single best thing you can do for yourself.
By the way, want to get really good at getting things done?
a) Set all your clocks to the REAL time; I have 4 clocks in my apartment, 1 was accurate, the other 3 were set later, so it gave me excuses to not do things NOW. Once I set them all to the right time, I started getting things done!
b) Make a small list, with certain items are top priorities, knock them off one at a time.
That's what I've learned.
Again with the emotionally shaky ground; it happened for most of the day. Couldn't look people in the eye without getting emotional. It left for a bit, but it's come back as I type this. Lots to clear on!
Here and there, there are things that have me bouncing with joy, and then it quietly goes back to this feeling of being down.
I had classes, and then my program organized a graduation photoshoot with pro photographers. I couldn't really stare into the camera without having some emotion going on. The second round, it was much better.
Feeling good for no reason can a difficult thing if you've let negative thought patterns take over in the past. Getting rid of those will make it all happen. But feeling good for no reason is the single best thing you can do for yourself.
By the way, want to get really good at getting things done?
a) Set all your clocks to the REAL time; I have 4 clocks in my apartment, 1 was accurate, the other 3 were set later, so it gave me excuses to not do things NOW. Once I set them all to the right time, I started getting things done!
b) Make a small list, with certain items are top priorities, knock them off one at a time.
That's what I've learned.
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