Ampers&d Finds His Mojo [SM3.0]

[Ampersnd]

I find it a little odd that this journal seems to have more talk about money and music then about women and sex. Did you want to become a sex magnet really badly when you started this program, or was it just something you felt like you should want?
Since I've started sex magnet 3 months ago, sex is pretty much all I can think about lol.

It's a given that I'm thinking about sex; I fantasize quite often in class and I sometimes get distracted by that.

I wanted to become a sex magnet at the start because I really really wanted to start having sex again, and that I kept seeing gorgeous women in the market of my town, but felt like I couldn't do anything about it.

So it came from a place of lack; I also wanted to make sure that before I become successful, women liked me for me, and that I could figure out that area, so that I would never doubt that women liked me.

Now, I see sex in positive terms, or I don't see it in terms of lack.
Right now, and the previous few days, I was in a slump when it comes to wanting to be with women. But yesterday, I have almost set up a date with someone I've seen several times, and have had sex with before, so I'm certainly not a carnal hermit.

NOTE/EDIT: To add, I was much more obsessed with women, being around women, and the possibility of sex, all around Stages 2-3. A lot of that obsession is gone now.