Stage 5, Day 26
Plays: 410 Hours
Seems that my sex drive has been on a brief vacation (since yesterday); it's pretty nice, as my focus isn't being pulled a thousand different directions. Haven't watched porn in probably 5 weeks, and haven't fapped since my date on Thursday. No real urge to, either.
I re-watched 'Wolf of Wall Street', and there were plenty of naked beauties, and though they were nice to look at, I had no real urges come up.
Despite this sort of drive, I was able to be productive after work. During work, I was able to put myself in a very happy, upbeat place. Got new headphones that should work for a long time; it not, I have a 3 year warranty. Still getting used to the feel; it also makes the trickling stream harder to play alongside other things, as it tends to overpower the tracks; ultrasonic will be making an appearance.
The girl that was selling them to me was being very fidgety and accommodating; maybe she liked me, but was nervous. I tend to forget that I sometimes have that ability, as I don't feel the nervousness from them (if that's what they're doing). I mentioned that her phone was very big (a huge block sticking out of her pocket), and she kept trying to get me to try it out and play around with it, even though her screensaver and the page it opened up on embarrassed her.
'Wolf of Wall Street' made me want to become an ultra millionaire (30+ mil), though that will take at least a BIT of time, effort, and focus. Having that amount seems a bit absurd, because if I add up all the stuff I want, I probably won't even come close. We'll see what happens when I run BAMM a few times in the near future.
Looking forward to Stage 6!
Plays: 410 Hours
Seems that my sex drive has been on a brief vacation (since yesterday); it's pretty nice, as my focus isn't being pulled a thousand different directions. Haven't watched porn in probably 5 weeks, and haven't fapped since my date on Thursday. No real urge to, either.
I re-watched 'Wolf of Wall Street', and there were plenty of naked beauties, and though they were nice to look at, I had no real urges come up.
Despite this sort of drive, I was able to be productive after work. During work, I was able to put myself in a very happy, upbeat place. Got new headphones that should work for a long time; it not, I have a 3 year warranty. Still getting used to the feel; it also makes the trickling stream harder to play alongside other things, as it tends to overpower the tracks; ultrasonic will be making an appearance.
The girl that was selling them to me was being very fidgety and accommodating; maybe she liked me, but was nervous. I tend to forget that I sometimes have that ability, as I don't feel the nervousness from them (if that's what they're doing). I mentioned that her phone was very big (a huge block sticking out of her pocket), and she kept trying to get me to try it out and play around with it, even though her screensaver and the page it opened up on embarrassed her.
'Wolf of Wall Street' made me want to become an ultra millionaire (30+ mil), though that will take at least a BIT of time, effort, and focus. Having that amount seems a bit absurd, because if I add up all the stuff I want, I probably won't even come close. We'll see what happens when I run BAMM a few times in the near future.
Looking forward to Stage 6!
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