Stage 5, Day 22
The project is submitted; low stress now.
I went to the clinic and do a TB test and for the flu shot. In waiting, there was this very socially uninhibited older woman, snapping pictures of people with her little 2''x2'' spy camera. She was taking pictures of people who were on their phone, because "they were using their phone to spy on people".
It quickly became the elephant in the waiting room. I was uncomfortable, but I eventually went over and calmly asked: "could I ask what you're doing, ma'am?", and then we talked briefly. I couldn't talk her out of it, but I snitched on her when I was in the office heh
I feel like I'm powerless relating to women. My inner dialogue: "I COULD talk to her, but it's not really going to matter, since she's not gonna want to hang with me. Meh, shouldn't even bother using the effort." That will change.
I've been doing Cory Skyy's Magnetic Mindset affirmations in a mirror, and tapping on the resistance I felt on these affirmations. So some shifting is happening.
And has, since I saw a woman at the water fountain that I really wanted to talk to, just the timing was off. She's in the class next to mine, at the same hours, same day. So I'll go to class early next week, and if I spot her, I'll talk to her.
I went to the gym for the first time in a bit, and it was positive. Ever since coming home and eating, I've had a dull stomach that's increased in intensity. Gonna sleep it off.
EDIT: I'm starting to go back and forth between AM6 and BASE. I don't t in the end, I can't lose; BASE would help me hit the ground running once I'm out of uni (which is in around 8-9 months), but it could mean that I could lose focus on uni and derail. AM6 will help me center and focus during this period, but may lead to less momentum related to money and financial (and time) independence.
The project is submitted; low stress now.
I went to the clinic and do a TB test and for the flu shot. In waiting, there was this very socially uninhibited older woman, snapping pictures of people with her little 2''x2'' spy camera. She was taking pictures of people who were on their phone, because "they were using their phone to spy on people".
It quickly became the elephant in the waiting room. I was uncomfortable, but I eventually went over and calmly asked: "could I ask what you're doing, ma'am?", and then we talked briefly. I couldn't talk her out of it, but I snitched on her when I was in the office heh
I feel like I'm powerless relating to women. My inner dialogue: "I COULD talk to her, but it's not really going to matter, since she's not gonna want to hang with me. Meh, shouldn't even bother using the effort." That will change.
I've been doing Cory Skyy's Magnetic Mindset affirmations in a mirror, and tapping on the resistance I felt on these affirmations. So some shifting is happening.
And has, since I saw a woman at the water fountain that I really wanted to talk to, just the timing was off. She's in the class next to mine, at the same hours, same day. So I'll go to class early next week, and if I spot her, I'll talk to her.
I went to the gym for the first time in a bit, and it was positive. Ever since coming home and eating, I've had a dull stomach that's increased in intensity. Gonna sleep it off.
EDIT: I'm starting to go back and forth between AM6 and BASE. I don't t in the end, I can't lose; BASE would help me hit the ground running once I'm out of uni (which is in around 8-9 months), but it could mean that I could lose focus on uni and derail. AM6 will help me center and focus during this period, but may lead to less momentum related to money and financial (and time) independence.
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