11-16-2014, 10:10 AM
Ricardo,
When I ask myself "would I really want to?", it's because before, I would be interested in a girl with a nice ass, but nothing else about her would interest. The night before writing that, I had sex with a woman I met a few months ago through 'cold approach'. A woman with whom I enjoy her company and her sex.
If I wanted a girl simply because of one feature on her body, that would be kind of low, especially if I don't care at all about the woman. I'm not trying to have sex with an ass. Or just with a nice set of tits. I'm trying to have sex with women, women who give me an overall visceral feeling of 'yes, I'd want to have sex with HER'.
I also want to make sure that I (very generally) enjoy the company of the woman; she respects herself enough to not damage her body through hard drugs, cigarettes and alcohol, she has some sense of humor, she has a somewhat pleasant disposition, that we have some chemistry and that she's feminine. Once again, I'm trying to have sex with a woman, not a fleshlight with legs.
Yesterday night, there were a handful of women who gave me that feeling, and Yahweh (euphemism) bless them for being made that way.
The "I don't want it badly enough" line was used in a snarky way, as I know that someone could use that line as a way to counter the absence of results:
"Hmm, the subs didn't work? Guess you didn't want it badly enough!"
It takes responsibility off the subliminal to work, and puts all the onus on the user to "want it badly enough".
I started SM because of that visceral feeling of inadequacy when I'd see plenty of beautiful women in my market when I was busking, and knowing that nothing could be done about it; if I approached, I'd often creep them out. So I really "wanted it", and I "want" to figure this out. I just feel like I'm under-equipped for certain situations.
When I ask myself "would I really want to?", it's because before, I would be interested in a girl with a nice ass, but nothing else about her would interest. The night before writing that, I had sex with a woman I met a few months ago through 'cold approach'. A woman with whom I enjoy her company and her sex.
If I wanted a girl simply because of one feature on her body, that would be kind of low, especially if I don't care at all about the woman. I'm not trying to have sex with an ass. Or just with a nice set of tits. I'm trying to have sex with women, women who give me an overall visceral feeling of 'yes, I'd want to have sex with HER'.
I also want to make sure that I (very generally) enjoy the company of the woman; she respects herself enough to not damage her body through hard drugs, cigarettes and alcohol, she has some sense of humor, she has a somewhat pleasant disposition, that we have some chemistry and that she's feminine. Once again, I'm trying to have sex with a woman, not a fleshlight with legs.
Yesterday night, there were a handful of women who gave me that feeling, and Yahweh (euphemism) bless them for being made that way.
The "I don't want it badly enough" line was used in a snarky way, as I know that someone could use that line as a way to counter the absence of results:
"Hmm, the subs didn't work? Guess you didn't want it badly enough!"
It takes responsibility off the subliminal to work, and puts all the onus on the user to "want it badly enough".
I started SM because of that visceral feeling of inadequacy when I'd see plenty of beautiful women in my market when I was busking, and knowing that nothing could be done about it; if I approached, I'd often creep them out. So I really "wanted it", and I "want" to figure this out. I just feel like I'm under-equipped for certain situations.
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