11-11-2014, 10:44 PM
Stage 5, Day 17,
I'm having occasional flashes of wanting to connect with women and being open and vulnerable (authentic), and it making complete sense to me. But the next minute, I don't really care to. I would take it that this program has an 'Ultra Motivation' equivalent when it comes to women, and I've been resisting with passivity and apathy. I would presume that my mind will bow down to the instructions before long.
Had class, and pretty much connected the dots with the guitar scale formula after class. The rest will come down to memorizing them and putting the finishing touches on certain concepts, but it's very solid.
Had a midterm later on in the evening, which went well, and I've been working hard to cram for an Italian quiz for tomorrow. Whenever I think I've lost my "hustler mentality", I realize that I've still got it, but it's all focused on school. In a way, I'm glad SM hasn't distracted me from school too much (anymore), and I have a major assignment due a week from now as well.
Pretty full day tomorrow, and tomorrow night, I have a date (girl that was too sick to hang out last week). And two weeks ago, she was on her period. So we might be ripping each other apart then, provided all goes well. Plus I'll have likely have a healthy meal of pussy (I love giving head).
Wrote a part of a new song today; music seems to be flowing more than usual. There have been periods of great inspiration, and those are very thrilling.
Time for sleep!
I'm having occasional flashes of wanting to connect with women and being open and vulnerable (authentic), and it making complete sense to me. But the next minute, I don't really care to. I would take it that this program has an 'Ultra Motivation' equivalent when it comes to women, and I've been resisting with passivity and apathy. I would presume that my mind will bow down to the instructions before long.
Had class, and pretty much connected the dots with the guitar scale formula after class. The rest will come down to memorizing them and putting the finishing touches on certain concepts, but it's very solid.
Had a midterm later on in the evening, which went well, and I've been working hard to cram for an Italian quiz for tomorrow. Whenever I think I've lost my "hustler mentality", I realize that I've still got it, but it's all focused on school. In a way, I'm glad SM hasn't distracted me from school too much (anymore), and I have a major assignment due a week from now as well.
Pretty full day tomorrow, and tomorrow night, I have a date (girl that was too sick to hang out last week). And two weeks ago, she was on her period. So we might be ripping each other apart then, provided all goes well. Plus I'll have likely have a healthy meal of pussy (I love giving head).
Wrote a part of a new song today; music seems to be flowing more than usual. There have been periods of great inspiration, and those are very thrilling.
Time for sleep!
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