11-06-2014, 11:13 PM
Stage 5, Day 12,
Got lots done today regarding my major (running errands that allow me to work in vulnerable sectors). I was texting the girl from yesterday, and when I hint that we should make plans again, she texts back that she doesn't think we have that much in common (which isn't true), and that she's generally very busy. So she's off the hook.
The girl I've seen the most has had a high fever, and now a cough. I actually care about her well-being too, which might be selfish, as I want to enjoy her most when she feels good.
I went through the day feeling great; I even got a new outfit for work (looks sharp). I studied the rest of the day, and now I feel irritated. Let me explain.
Just based on what's going on with the sub, I'm getting sort of 'anti-results'; girls I approach seem momentarily interested and then disinterested, I've gotten a seemingly enthusiastic phone number that leads nowhere, I've gone on first dates that stall out where there's no chance of a second date, girls don't look at me, they don't really flirt. Women get logical with me. I've even gotten in a flow with sexual intent on a date, and she didn't seem to respond. Now, I don't really want to try anything, nor do I really have any desire or motivation to do so. Even to go out.
It's VERY frustrating; I want to connect with women, and they don't seem to want anything to do with me. Based off of what's happening right now, it would appear that women just don't like me. It's clear that it's on me to fix such a "universal" problem.
Although, it may lead me to do the unthinkable...
That's right...
ENTER A LOVELESS RELATIONSHIP WITH A WOMAN I'LL QUIETLY RESENT FOR MANY YEARS!!
I'm not joking, I'll do it! Don't test me..
It's the only way out of this deep dish ice-cream bowl of despair and loneliness, I tellz ya! Women aren't quite beating down my door to beat me off, so I've frankly become a bit of a cry-baby this evening (i.e Tear Magnet 5G)
But I'll tell you one thing; this MUST mean that transformation is right around the corner. Why else would I be experiencing the complete opposite of what I've paid money for (i.e. Anti-Sex Magnet)?? Let's crank up the volume as I go to sleep!
Btw, I tried out a bunch of Shreem Brzee chants; it's fun and puts me in an interesting zone. Will continue doing.
Got lots done today regarding my major (running errands that allow me to work in vulnerable sectors). I was texting the girl from yesterday, and when I hint that we should make plans again, she texts back that she doesn't think we have that much in common (which isn't true), and that she's generally very busy. So she's off the hook.
The girl I've seen the most has had a high fever, and now a cough. I actually care about her well-being too, which might be selfish, as I want to enjoy her most when she feels good.
I went through the day feeling great; I even got a new outfit for work (looks sharp). I studied the rest of the day, and now I feel irritated. Let me explain.
Just based on what's going on with the sub, I'm getting sort of 'anti-results'; girls I approach seem momentarily interested and then disinterested, I've gotten a seemingly enthusiastic phone number that leads nowhere, I've gone on first dates that stall out where there's no chance of a second date, girls don't look at me, they don't really flirt. Women get logical with me. I've even gotten in a flow with sexual intent on a date, and she didn't seem to respond. Now, I don't really want to try anything, nor do I really have any desire or motivation to do so. Even to go out.
It's VERY frustrating; I want to connect with women, and they don't seem to want anything to do with me. Based off of what's happening right now, it would appear that women just don't like me. It's clear that it's on me to fix such a "universal" problem.
Although, it may lead me to do the unthinkable...
That's right...
ENTER A LOVELESS RELATIONSHIP WITH A WOMAN I'LL QUIETLY RESENT FOR MANY YEARS!!
I'm not joking, I'll do it! Don't test me..
It's the only way out of this deep dish ice-cream bowl of despair and loneliness, I tellz ya! Women aren't quite beating down my door to beat me off, so I've frankly become a bit of a cry-baby this evening (i.e Tear Magnet 5G)
But I'll tell you one thing; this MUST mean that transformation is right around the corner. Why else would I be experiencing the complete opposite of what I've paid money for (i.e. Anti-Sex Magnet)?? Let's crank up the volume as I go to sleep!
Btw, I tried out a bunch of Shreem Brzee chants; it's fun and puts me in an interesting zone. Will continue doing.
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