11-06-2014, 04:59 AM
Stage 5, Day 11
So far: 159 plays/hours
Almost late for, well, let's be honest, I woke up late for class. Got there, did my other classes, then I met with a girl I met two weeks ago (at the lockdown). Since I learned a valuable lesson from last time (even if a girl is interested and pursuing me, it won't be to my advantage if I turn the tables and start trying to kiss her).
She offered to go places, and I played along with a solid frame. It came to a point where we were perched up at the top of a lookout point, no one around, but she didn't seem all that comfortable. I find out she's a bit younger than I expected (18), and more shy than I expected. She's one of those girls that has all these fascinating fringe interests, but would have to let me in to know more about them.
At the top, I asked: "Are you feeling nervous?", she replies "I guess, I'm not used to hanging around dudes". I go "You don't have any guy friends?", and she answers: "Well, I do, but they're all friend-zoned so it's different". I got confused for a second, and then I got the hint.
I wound up holding her hand a couple of times, and I hugged her goodbye; I really didn't feel like doing anything beyond that (if that makes any sense). I trust my instinct when it comes to going for the kiss, and whenever I've gone for it without the instinct being there, it goes wrong.
At the end, I brought up the previous conversation to ask: "Did you consider this a date?", where she answers: "I dunno, do you?", and I said: "I'll consider it a date if you do". Her: "Okay. Just so you know that this is my second date ever, so you should feel lucky!" Me: "Sure thing" *smirk
Tl;dr Had a date, didn't kiss because I wasn't in the mood.
She's cute, and I don't want to corrupt her nor her views on relationships, especially if she's very new to the dating scene. I keep seeming to gravitate towards inexperienced/"innocent" young women. Plus, I'll have to let all the women I'm seeing that I'm seeing other people, to keep it fair. These are new problems, and they're higher quality problems than before (e.g. "I can't get a date")
After that, I studied for 4 hours for a midterm, met with a friend at a coffee shop (we studied at some point during that span of 4 hours), then I practiced voice and then guitar for probably 2 hours.
So far: 159 plays/hours
Almost late for, well, let's be honest, I woke up late for class. Got there, did my other classes, then I met with a girl I met two weeks ago (at the lockdown). Since I learned a valuable lesson from last time (even if a girl is interested and pursuing me, it won't be to my advantage if I turn the tables and start trying to kiss her).
She offered to go places, and I played along with a solid frame. It came to a point where we were perched up at the top of a lookout point, no one around, but she didn't seem all that comfortable. I find out she's a bit younger than I expected (18), and more shy than I expected. She's one of those girls that has all these fascinating fringe interests, but would have to let me in to know more about them.
At the top, I asked: "Are you feeling nervous?", she replies "I guess, I'm not used to hanging around dudes". I go "You don't have any guy friends?", and she answers: "Well, I do, but they're all friend-zoned so it's different". I got confused for a second, and then I got the hint.
I wound up holding her hand a couple of times, and I hugged her goodbye; I really didn't feel like doing anything beyond that (if that makes any sense). I trust my instinct when it comes to going for the kiss, and whenever I've gone for it without the instinct being there, it goes wrong.
At the end, I brought up the previous conversation to ask: "Did you consider this a date?", where she answers: "I dunno, do you?", and I said: "I'll consider it a date if you do". Her: "Okay. Just so you know that this is my second date ever, so you should feel lucky!" Me: "Sure thing" *smirk
Tl;dr Had a date, didn't kiss because I wasn't in the mood.
She's cute, and I don't want to corrupt her nor her views on relationships, especially if she's very new to the dating scene. I keep seeming to gravitate towards inexperienced/"innocent" young women. Plus, I'll have to let all the women I'm seeing that I'm seeing other people, to keep it fair. These are new problems, and they're higher quality problems than before (e.g. "I can't get a date")
After that, I studied for 4 hours for a midterm, met with a friend at a coffee shop (we studied at some point during that span of 4 hours), then I practiced voice and then guitar for probably 2 hours.
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