11-03-2014, 11:46 PM
Stage 5, Day 9,
My feelings are all over the place, in a sort of good way; I started off the day very well and feeling high on life, however I have these moments of bitterness and resentment that trap me if I stay there for more than a minute. I kept pulling myself back to feeling better. I was less dominant than yesterday and so on.
I'd been feeling sentiments of resentment towards the subliminal, and how it's not working to the degree I want it to work (blah blah blah); it's a temporary feeling that I'm sure will be taken care of. I lost interest in chatting up new women, and the ones in which I got their info stopped responding. Well, funny that in using a subliminal called "Sex Magnet", and I'm often getting average guy results. (Don't get offended just yet IML)
Another feeling that I was experiencing related to wanting to destroy a man (a competitor) if I ever really had to. This might truly be why I had the idea of going into boxing or MMA; it's so that if push came to shove, I would be the survivor. Or I would just be the more dominant one (say we're both pursuing the same woman).
My motivation started kicking on in the evening, directed towards my midterm and guitar practice. Kickass! Perhaps my hustler mentality will return (as it was in Stage 1). It's kept me up late thought; I was playing a bunch of motivation videos in a row, so I guess they do work!
My feelings are all over the place, in a sort of good way; I started off the day very well and feeling high on life, however I have these moments of bitterness and resentment that trap me if I stay there for more than a minute. I kept pulling myself back to feeling better. I was less dominant than yesterday and so on.
I'd been feeling sentiments of resentment towards the subliminal, and how it's not working to the degree I want it to work (blah blah blah); it's a temporary feeling that I'm sure will be taken care of. I lost interest in chatting up new women, and the ones in which I got their info stopped responding. Well, funny that in using a subliminal called "Sex Magnet", and I'm often getting average guy results. (Don't get offended just yet IML)
Another feeling that I was experiencing related to wanting to destroy a man (a competitor) if I ever really had to. This might truly be why I had the idea of going into boxing or MMA; it's so that if push came to shove, I would be the survivor. Or I would just be the more dominant one (say we're both pursuing the same woman).
My motivation started kicking on in the evening, directed towards my midterm and guitar practice. Kickass! Perhaps my hustler mentality will return (as it was in Stage 1). It's kept me up late thought; I was playing a bunch of motivation videos in a row, so I guess they do work!
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