Stage 5, Day 6
Today was alright; wore my Halloween costume to school, then went to class, and then went to work.
After work, I went to a party. I started chatting with one of my best friend's friend (who is from out of town and is cute). My best friend was very drunk. She told me to not hook up with her, and I was a bit dismissive about it. Anyways, my friend tells her behind my back that I wanted to kiss/hook up with her, and I got a bit defensive. She girl obviously said she didn't want to (even if there was possibility that she did) to avoid disapproval.
My friend had a point; she's Orthodox Christian and is the last person to look to for a hookup. However, I kept making eye contact while talking, and there'd be that twinkle in her eye, and then my balls would get all tingly. Come to think of it, the best place to look to for hookups could be repressed Orthodox women
Anyways, I recover from this like (in my opinion) a man would. I pull her aside, and tell her: "I don't know what *my friend* said to you, but I have an idea, and it's probably completely true. And she's got upset when she saw me leading you by the hand, and that I'm interested while the two of you are friends." We got off on good terms.
The one issue I had is when I was chatting with her, and some other guy comes up and starts chatting with her. Fine, but I'm not about to start stepping in like she's my gf. He suggests they go somewhere, and suddenly, she's gone with him. Don't worry, they didn't do anything (she's truthful about her religion), they just stepping outside, but I'm thinking "WTF? I must not have much gravity or personal power to attract her." What upset me the most in the moment is that I've spent over 600$ for a program to be more attractive, and some guy comes along and out-games me and has her ditch me.
Anyways, they come back. And the guy is trying to run his game, and she probably let him down lightly in whatever way (i.e. I see him prodding her for a hug at the end of the interaction). She was DD'ing my other friends, so I walk them to the car, say "bye" to all, and she hugs me without any sort of prodding. She apologizes (for the fact that nothing would happen between us), and I tell her assuringly: "Don't be sorry".
I say "see you in a couple years" (since the last time I saw her), and she says "well, I'll be down for X-mas". I say: "I'll probably be home for X-mas". She says: "Well, I have a longer break than you guys". Seems like a major hint that she wants to see me again.
Gonna refocus my efforts to building polarity in public and with a woman of interest. Gonna PSTEC Positive this affirmation:
"I generate intense and lasting sexual feelings and sexual presence in the presence of a woman that interests me."
Today was alright; wore my Halloween costume to school, then went to class, and then went to work.
After work, I went to a party. I started chatting with one of my best friend's friend (who is from out of town and is cute). My best friend was very drunk. She told me to not hook up with her, and I was a bit dismissive about it. Anyways, my friend tells her behind my back that I wanted to kiss/hook up with her, and I got a bit defensive. She girl obviously said she didn't want to (even if there was possibility that she did) to avoid disapproval.
My friend had a point; she's Orthodox Christian and is the last person to look to for a hookup. However, I kept making eye contact while talking, and there'd be that twinkle in her eye, and then my balls would get all tingly. Come to think of it, the best place to look to for hookups could be repressed Orthodox women
Anyways, I recover from this like (in my opinion) a man would. I pull her aside, and tell her: "I don't know what *my friend* said to you, but I have an idea, and it's probably completely true. And she's got upset when she saw me leading you by the hand, and that I'm interested while the two of you are friends." We got off on good terms.
The one issue I had is when I was chatting with her, and some other guy comes up and starts chatting with her. Fine, but I'm not about to start stepping in like she's my gf. He suggests they go somewhere, and suddenly, she's gone with him. Don't worry, they didn't do anything (she's truthful about her religion), they just stepping outside, but I'm thinking "WTF? I must not have much gravity or personal power to attract her." What upset me the most in the moment is that I've spent over 600$ for a program to be more attractive, and some guy comes along and out-games me and has her ditch me.
Anyways, they come back. And the guy is trying to run his game, and she probably let him down lightly in whatever way (i.e. I see him prodding her for a hug at the end of the interaction). She was DD'ing my other friends, so I walk them to the car, say "bye" to all, and she hugs me without any sort of prodding. She apologizes (for the fact that nothing would happen between us), and I tell her assuringly: "Don't be sorry".
I say "see you in a couple years" (since the last time I saw her), and she says "well, I'll be down for X-mas". I say: "I'll probably be home for X-mas". She says: "Well, I have a longer break than you guys". Seems like a major hint that she wants to see me again.
Gonna refocus my efforts to building polarity in public and with a woman of interest. Gonna PSTEC Positive this affirmation:
"I generate intense and lasting sexual feelings and sexual presence in the presence of a woman that interests me."
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