Stage 4, Day 19,
Still a (very mild) dull ache in my stomach. Did my midterms, work, and then went quickly to a friend's friend's apartment for a pre-party. There was a pretty cute girl there; I chatted with her, and experimented with building that masculine polarity; I simply couldn't. It started alright, and then I could tell she got bored, and then she had to go.
What did I learn? That I should make it very ideal for me to feel the polarity. a) Cut out porn completely; b) Jerk off less; c) meet hotter women (the girl was pretty cute, but she was simply the cutest in the room) d) build up this polarity before meeting anyone, instead of vice versa;
EDIT: I'm posting a video real quick before going home on a train early tomorrow morning.
EDIT 2: Here's the VDO: http://youtu.be/YobHVWUPP_U
Still a (very mild) dull ache in my stomach. Did my midterms, work, and then went quickly to a friend's friend's apartment for a pre-party. There was a pretty cute girl there; I chatted with her, and experimented with building that masculine polarity; I simply couldn't. It started alright, and then I could tell she got bored, and then she had to go.
What did I learn? That I should make it very ideal for me to feel the polarity. a) Cut out porn completely; b) Jerk off less; c) meet hotter women (the girl was pretty cute, but she was simply the cutest in the room) d) build up this polarity before meeting anyone, instead of vice versa;
EDIT: I'm posting a video real quick before going home on a train early tomorrow morning.
EDIT 2: Here's the VDO: http://youtu.be/YobHVWUPP_U
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