Had my hang-out with the viet girl; It was fun; partway through, I was sitting close to her, but I don't think she was having it; we chatted about 20% of the time. I was still playing with her hair a bit and touching her in appropriate situations.
I was very passive and had virtually no drive; I would've liked to kiss her, but I normally get a "yes" feeling to go through with it. I was getting a "don't do it" feeling, so I decided against it.
Back in Stage 2, my "go for it" gut instinct turned out to be the perfect time to do it, and the two girls I dated were reciprocal.
I should also comment on the dreams I've been having the last two days:
2 Nights Ago:
I was hiding from some mob guy, who wanted to kill me. I was holed up on the second floor of this one building (kind of like a store downstairs, apartment upstairs), and the mob's hitman is downstairs, outside and looking. While I was scared, I remembered to become hopeful and positive to attract (yeah, goofy, I know) a way out of there. Sure enough, I kept finding a secret door, or a connecting window to find my way out.
Last night: I was becoming buried in this one theoretical class (Advanced Stats), and situations arose where I was missing classes, therefore missing the required information to be able to study well. The exam was looming, and I felt unprepared, dumb and fearful about what would happen. I'd wake up before being hit with the actual exam.
The sub must be knocking away fears behind the scenes, as my dreams normally aren't like this.
I was very passive and had virtually no drive; I would've liked to kiss her, but I normally get a "yes" feeling to go through with it. I was getting a "don't do it" feeling, so I decided against it.
Back in Stage 2, my "go for it" gut instinct turned out to be the perfect time to do it, and the two girls I dated were reciprocal.
I should also comment on the dreams I've been having the last two days:
2 Nights Ago:
I was hiding from some mob guy, who wanted to kill me. I was holed up on the second floor of this one building (kind of like a store downstairs, apartment upstairs), and the mob's hitman is downstairs, outside and looking. While I was scared, I remembered to become hopeful and positive to attract (yeah, goofy, I know) a way out of there. Sure enough, I kept finding a secret door, or a connecting window to find my way out.
Last night: I was becoming buried in this one theoretical class (Advanced Stats), and situations arose where I was missing classes, therefore missing the required information to be able to study well. The exam was looming, and I felt unprepared, dumb and fearful about what would happen. I'd wake up before being hit with the actual exam.
The sub must be knocking away fears behind the scenes, as my dreams normally aren't like this.
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