10-01-2014, 09:00 PM
Stage 4, Day 9
Meh. When it comes to women, I just don't feel like it. Make that with everything; just un-motivated. I know that I should be going after women to build connections, but even with an attractive woman around, I'm thinking 'meh'.
I was also emotionally shaky at some point in the morning. I'm about as passive and indirect as I was 5-7 years ago. it kind of sucks. But I was able to have myself feel very good for a portion of the day, that is, until I felt some resistance.
I was approached for what I believe to be the first time in the set; I was attending a language meet-up, and I thought this group of ladies (and some guys) were leaving and come near me. I ask: "are you guys coming back next week?", and one of the two girls left says "yes, but we're here now". Point taken. They join my little group and they were talking mostly to me and asking me questions in Spanish (one of the languages I'm learning). But I'm just like 'meh'. I feel kind of bad that people have to put in effort to keep the convo going. Another person in the group spoke Spanish and kept them busy. I got an email of the cute Spanish cute.
Also, the Vietnamese girl texts me to hang out. It's planned for tomorrow.
Meh. When it comes to women, I just don't feel like it. Make that with everything; just un-motivated. I know that I should be going after women to build connections, but even with an attractive woman around, I'm thinking 'meh'.
I was also emotionally shaky at some point in the morning. I'm about as passive and indirect as I was 5-7 years ago. it kind of sucks. But I was able to have myself feel very good for a portion of the day, that is, until I felt some resistance.
I was approached for what I believe to be the first time in the set; I was attending a language meet-up, and I thought this group of ladies (and some guys) were leaving and come near me. I ask: "are you guys coming back next week?", and one of the two girls left says "yes, but we're here now". Point taken. They join my little group and they were talking mostly to me and asking me questions in Spanish (one of the languages I'm learning). But I'm just like 'meh'. I feel kind of bad that people have to put in effort to keep the convo going. Another person in the group spoke Spanish and kept them busy. I got an email of the cute Spanish cute.
Also, the Vietnamese girl texts me to hang out. It's planned for tomorrow.
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