Ampers&d Finds His Mojo [SM3.0]

[Ricardo]

Stage 4. Day 7

My resistance is basically a throw-back to high school; I'm this awkward, goofy guy who has no sense of presence or masculinity. I know that once this passes.. look out. Matter of fact, a large chunk of it did in the evening. I kept noticing how smooth I looked in the mirror. Kick ass body language.

Beyond that, my resistance had been a form of: "oh noes! no wiminz lik meeeeeee! I iz invizibul nd no 1 wll lvz me!!! I'm all alone" It kicked on when I keep seeing the vietnamese woman being hot and cold. I suppose I was more into her than I anticipated. Should just let it go.

I went through a lot of that doing AM. Those feelings do pop up now and then but they get weaker. It's also reassuring to know they're soon to be replaced by better things

I notice you refer to yourself a lot as this "inbetweener" type. Even after AM and 3 Stages of SM it shows how deep-rooted these beliefs can be. It could be that to get past that and benefit the most from SM you should cycle AM>SM one more time.