09-24-2014, 03:57 AM
(09-23-2014, 01:52 PM)Adri Wrote: DAY 3
Wow very bad day! I dreamt I was speaking with a mentor of mine and suddenly I felt I couldn't move anymore and that something was taking control of my body. I tried to shout but my voice was a demon voice and instead of shouting I said in that demon voice "I am a spirit!". It was the thing that was taking control of my body speaking. I tried to repress it as it was entering my body. And then... it was gone. I was fully awake in my bed, not knowing if this was a dream or for real. I still don't know at this moment. Demon possession isn't part of my belief system and I generally used to make fun of it. But I can tell that it was pretty vivid, so I don't know what to think. I will go for thinking it was just a bad dream, and if it happens again, well we'll see what happens.
Went to University. Spoke to nobody, I am completely antisocial. Tomorrow I will try to force myself speak to people, I cannot stay alone all the time. even if I like it, it does not serve me.
Looking at every hot guy, and trying to please them in complete neediness. This is one of my big problem.
Sex drive is increasing, I can feel it!
Sounds like a touch of resistance / subconscious fear of being a man magnet. I've had dreams of not being in control doing AM but they do go away if you just plough through.
