EPRHA (Rise of the Phoenix)

[Tao374]

Day 43: Nothing really new to report regarding the sub. However, I've committed myself to NoFap. I'm currently on day 6. Don't think I have made it past about 4 days since my freshman summer of high school when I spent a month in Europe. Day 4 was really hard again on this cycle but I got past it and feel way better. I don't really have a goal for this except, just hoping it takes me to the next level. I've been interested in doing this for a long time. I remember reading a book titled "Kabbalah on Sex" by Yehuda Berg, where he talk about improving both your life and your sex by changing your sexual habits. Also watched this TED Talk video about porn https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=wSF82AwSDiU it's very interesting. Should also probably mention the Kanye West article my teacher gave me http://www.eonline.com/news/100270/kanye...ed-success. The point being this is something I need to do! Hoping for more creativity, better choices of female companions, mind expansion (perception shift) and more success in my life. I take a dietary supplement that contains Schizandra, which is one of the better astringents in traditional Chincese Medicine. Astringents help conserve energy by preventing energy leakages. Also, they help prevent the loss of bodily fluids. I think this is helping me a little bit. I want to go back to taking a formula called Microcosmic Orbit by Dragon Herbs. It is really awesome it contains 8 astringent herbs and when I took it before it really changed the way I felt and and had a tremendous effect on my sex life (was really sexually active at the time). Basically it allows energy in the body to flow properly (sexual energy being one of them).

Left some things out: I'm having rather intense sexual dreams lately, evolving females that I interact with regularly. The dreams are kind of satisfying but I don't climax in the dreams, they seem to fade into something else. I believe I have the willpower for NoFap but it's still not easy. I'm getting headaches/irritation that come and go. I was reading about people comparing to addiction i.e. drug withdraw symptoms. It kind of is like that. I have an addictive personality and brain is looking for a way to indulge it's self but I'm breaking myself of one more bad habit. Hopefully my body and brain will begin to reprogram its self to operate this way. Meaningful life here I come