09-17-2014, 09:43 PM
Stage 4: day 13:
Stage 4 AM5 sex drive is at an all time LOW. Haven't came since close to the end of stage 3. What in the world...I honestly haven't thought about sex or even jacking off unless I'm on these forums and actively remembering what changes are occuring.
I honestly just want to go and blow a load just thinking about the fact that I haven't blown one in over 2 weeks. I've tried to consciously think of sex and and stuff but the desire isn't there as it normally is. Like usually if I think of sex at night, i'll open up some porn and jack off but nope. I'm not chasing any chicks...nothing, I had lots of attempts but the desire isn't there. Schools a priority, and I've never prioritized school this much in my ENTIRE life. I Used to be the biggest procastinator and never do does he's homework type of person. Failed lots of classes in highschool, had to take a prerequiste course in college to get into business. Now I'm like the guy who brags about his marks and is so focused on getting homework done.
My social game is getting better and better. At times I get insecure and tell myself, "Don't talk too much, you're acting to needy/chatty" and stop myself. I'm going to test my social skills more in group talks, that's where all the insecurities are, and hopefully they are eliminated. I'm assigned in a group in my management class of 5, 3 girls, and me and one other guy that I've been establishing a friendship with.
Ah let me explain how this group formed. Our Instructor asked us to form in a group of 4 or 5 and the guy I'm friends with paired, and we needed 2 or 3 more people, so I was like, bro we gotta have girls in our group, I have about 4-5 cute looking girls in this class, some already joined groups and while I was telling him about having girls in the group, the instructor said "Groups who have a mixed of girls/guys often do better overall" so i was like see! and I pointed out 3 girls who looked like they already formed together and said, how about those girls and he's like alright. I walk up to them I'm like how many people you girls got in your group, and they're like 3, and I'm like K, do you want to add 2? And they all said sure!. And this one chick specifically was pleased with it, the other 2 were worried just cause we were pretty attractive(no cockyness intended) that we weren't the brightest and or help with the group project. Yet when I asked them about there marks for their last quiz they had average scores while I had 100% in one and 93% in the other. So that pretty much shut those 2 other girls mouths/doubts. But I can tell those 2 girls got offended about the marks. So I gotta build the connection again next class which is tomorrow.
Stage 4 AM5 sex drive is at an all time LOW. Haven't came since close to the end of stage 3. What in the world...I honestly haven't thought about sex or even jacking off unless I'm on these forums and actively remembering what changes are occuring.
I honestly just want to go and blow a load just thinking about the fact that I haven't blown one in over 2 weeks. I've tried to consciously think of sex and and stuff but the desire isn't there as it normally is. Like usually if I think of sex at night, i'll open up some porn and jack off but nope. I'm not chasing any chicks...nothing, I had lots of attempts but the desire isn't there. Schools a priority, and I've never prioritized school this much in my ENTIRE life. I Used to be the biggest procastinator and never do does he's homework type of person. Failed lots of classes in highschool, had to take a prerequiste course in college to get into business. Now I'm like the guy who brags about his marks and is so focused on getting homework done.
My social game is getting better and better. At times I get insecure and tell myself, "Don't talk too much, you're acting to needy/chatty" and stop myself. I'm going to test my social skills more in group talks, that's where all the insecurities are, and hopefully they are eliminated. I'm assigned in a group in my management class of 5, 3 girls, and me and one other guy that I've been establishing a friendship with.
Ah let me explain how this group formed. Our Instructor asked us to form in a group of 4 or 5 and the guy I'm friends with paired, and we needed 2 or 3 more people, so I was like, bro we gotta have girls in our group, I have about 4-5 cute looking girls in this class, some already joined groups and while I was telling him about having girls in the group, the instructor said "Groups who have a mixed of girls/guys often do better overall" so i was like see! and I pointed out 3 girls who looked like they already formed together and said, how about those girls and he's like alright. I walk up to them I'm like how many people you girls got in your group, and they're like 3, and I'm like K, do you want to add 2? And they all said sure!. And this one chick specifically was pleased with it, the other 2 were worried just cause we were pretty attractive(no cockyness intended) that we weren't the brightest and or help with the group project. Yet when I asked them about there marks for their last quiz they had average scores while I had 100% in one and 93% in the other. So that pretty much shut those 2 other girls mouths/doubts. But I can tell those 2 girls got offended about the marks. So I gotta build the connection again next class which is tomorrow.
