09-08-2014, 08:11 PM
Stage 3, Day 19,
Ugghh. Waking up without too much of a problem, but I'm SOOOOOOOO unmotivated to do what I aught to do. Schoolwork makes my head hurt to some extent, but I'm able to become very present in class, though it takes effort. I surmise that it's due to my switching from morning shakes to oatmeal since I had prematurely run out of fruit. That cut down my fruit/veggie intake pretty drastically.
I had managed to put in an 'Insanity' workout, and just did the bare minimum to get my coursework done. Didn't manage to practice guitar; I didn't even have the desire to practice that. That is pretty sad.
My auras are gaining strength as I focus more attention onto them; however, I think it's throwing my energy off, possibly due to the subliminals' intensity or sequencing. I believe that the final result is to become a 'sexual threat', but the sub might be providing this separately (that is to say that I could come off as threatening). Maybe sexual will come tomorrow morning
I stopped a girl walking on a pretty crowded street (which I used to be terrified of the idea), but she got all weird and was walking a bit faster. I made basic conversation, but it wasn't clicking. I was possibly throwing off bad energy. I know that trying to manipulate your energy too much can make you really weird, like someone who's trying to be cool.
Ugghh. Waking up without too much of a problem, but I'm SOOOOOOOO unmotivated to do what I aught to do. Schoolwork makes my head hurt to some extent, but I'm able to become very present in class, though it takes effort. I surmise that it's due to my switching from morning shakes to oatmeal since I had prematurely run out of fruit. That cut down my fruit/veggie intake pretty drastically.
I had managed to put in an 'Insanity' workout, and just did the bare minimum to get my coursework done. Didn't manage to practice guitar; I didn't even have the desire to practice that. That is pretty sad.
My auras are gaining strength as I focus more attention onto them; however, I think it's throwing my energy off, possibly due to the subliminals' intensity or sequencing. I believe that the final result is to become a 'sexual threat', but the sub might be providing this separately (that is to say that I could come off as threatening). Maybe sexual will come tomorrow morning
I stopped a girl walking on a pretty crowded street (which I used to be terrified of the idea), but she got all weird and was walking a bit faster. I made basic conversation, but it wasn't clicking. I was possibly throwing off bad energy. I know that trying to manipulate your energy too much can make you really weird, like someone who's trying to be cool.
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