08-28-2014, 10:57 PM
Stage 3, Day 9
Was Stage 3 the "vulnerable" stage? It is? Good.. I've been feeling that at work today, as well as a whole range of emotions, positive and negative. Could have cried at certain moments.
I've resolved that if I:
a) focus on the fun/positive aspect of my life so much that it puts me in a great mood (see: Law of Attraction)
b) focus and act upon the next step as each step shows up
I'll eventually reach my enormous goals as a musician. I've ordered musician autobiographies from the public library.
Despite this emotional turmoil, I've approached two women absolutely automatically without thinking about it. As a matter of fact, the more time between seeing the woman and saying my first word, my state increases.
Fuck the '3 second rule' for approaching; being on that escalator and waiting, a few people ahead of her, for both of us to get off so I can approach, I was feeling positive emotions, charisma, sex appeal increasing by the second.
Long story short, they both have significant others; one was 20 and married! She seemed flattered by the whole thing. Walking back into work afterwards, I was smiling uncontrollably.
I've spent a bunch of time practicing for a private event Saturday after next. It will pay between 150 to 180$, not too bad. I learned to play "You Are So Beautiful" just on guitar, sounds fantastic.
Was Stage 3 the "vulnerable" stage? It is? Good.. I've been feeling that at work today, as well as a whole range of emotions, positive and negative. Could have cried at certain moments.
I've resolved that if I:
a) focus on the fun/positive aspect of my life so much that it puts me in a great mood (see: Law of Attraction)
b) focus and act upon the next step as each step shows up
I'll eventually reach my enormous goals as a musician. I've ordered musician autobiographies from the public library.
Despite this emotional turmoil, I've approached two women absolutely automatically without thinking about it. As a matter of fact, the more time between seeing the woman and saying my first word, my state increases.
Fuck the '3 second rule' for approaching; being on that escalator and waiting, a few people ahead of her, for both of us to get off so I can approach, I was feeling positive emotions, charisma, sex appeal increasing by the second.
Long story short, they both have significant others; one was 20 and married! She seemed flattered by the whole thing. Walking back into work afterwards, I was smiling uncontrollably.
I've spent a bunch of time practicing for a private event Saturday after next. It will pay between 150 to 180$, not too bad. I learned to play "You Are So Beautiful" just on guitar, sounds fantastic.
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