08-07-2014, 10:46 AM
According to my recent self-explorations (journal), my parents (understandably) had a habit of dragging me along to a lot places I didn't like to go and my emotional response was kind of angry-resigned. I couldn't refuse their demands back then. Later on, when people ask me to do something, or go somewhere, I can now refuse them, but I still automatically reach back for that same angry-resigned feeling. Now, I'm thinking that AM6 stages 2-3 and 6, especially, have me unconsciously (or while dreaming) imagining people making request of me and me saying no to them (I've had a few dreams like that now during stage 6), which brings up this overall angry-resigned, sunken feeling that I don't consciously know the source of. I'm guessing these kinds of previously conditioned negative emotional responses would affect how you feel during the sub if it makes you imagine people with demands, leadership or things like that. Shannon?
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