08-05-2014, 07:20 PM
(This post was last modified: 08-05-2014, 07:23 PM by Nationwide.)
I just realized that I start AM 6, Stage 4 tomorrow. That's good, Stage 3 has been kind of tough. Lots of anger and lots of depression. I am encouraged, however. There has been a distinctive shift in my thinking since starting this sub. I've noticed it most dramatically when I'm interacting with people and I say things that previously I would have either kept to myself, or sugar coated to the point of being ineffective. Afterwards I think to myself, "hmmm...where did that come from?"
I've also noticed a lot less neediness. I truly feel like I don't need a damn thing to complete me, because I'm already complete. I just need to own my completeness...the good and the bad. And that brings up something else: I've noticed that my "good" is not all that good, and my "bad" is not all that bad. It all just is, and as I accept that. I grow stronger.
Man, I can't believe some of the shifts...and all on the cusp of questioning whether the sub was actually working. I'd tell anyone going through AM that when they encounter doubt, just ride it out. The doubts will be dispelled soon enough.
Nationwide
I've also noticed a lot less neediness. I truly feel like I don't need a damn thing to complete me, because I'm already complete. I just need to own my completeness...the good and the bad. And that brings up something else: I've noticed that my "good" is not all that good, and my "bad" is not all that bad. It all just is, and as I accept that. I grow stronger.
Man, I can't believe some of the shifts...and all on the cusp of questioning whether the sub was actually working. I'd tell anyone going through AM that when they encounter doubt, just ride it out. The doubts will be dispelled soon enough.
Nationwide
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