I think that you have some deeper women related issues like me. From sentences like "With a little more openness, I could have f*cked her" and "In the instance with the girl at the mall, if I had known she wasn't a hooker, I probably would have went into my usual "state"." It looks like you have some hostility or fear towards women and I think I have something similar, the good things that I have started noticing it more and more recently.
The "state" is like when you are completely present and couldn't care less about the outcome, rather you are more interested in the process of what's happening, that will in the end give the best result, if we are less attached to the outcome and more focused on the process. Amazing being in the state!
I am guilty of looking for the thing that can change my life and then everything will be awesome, I keep looking for the end event neglecting everything that is happening now. On my good days I think to myself that I'll take this day easy and live for 16 hours, chilling and doing stuff I want to do. In the end I still fall back to the initial "find the magic key" state.
Meditation should help a lot with reaction vs response. You will naturally be less reactive to whatever people say and be more responsive instead.
In the end that's just my perspective on things.
The "state" is like when you are completely present and couldn't care less about the outcome, rather you are more interested in the process of what's happening, that will in the end give the best result, if we are less attached to the outcome and more focused on the process. Amazing being in the state!
I am guilty of looking for the thing that can change my life and then everything will be awesome, I keep looking for the end event neglecting everything that is happening now. On my good days I think to myself that I'll take this day easy and live for 16 hours, chilling and doing stuff I want to do. In the end I still fall back to the initial "find the magic key" state.
Meditation should help a lot with reaction vs response. You will naturally be less reactive to whatever people say and be more responsive instead.
In the end that's just my perspective on things.
INFP-T
"If you dont work on shedding your emotional and spiritual baggage and egoic nature, then you are still a dead weight in society.. offering nothing.." - Anonymous
"If you dont work on shedding your emotional and spiritual baggage and egoic nature, then you are still a dead weight in society.. offering nothing.." - Anonymous
