07-20-2014, 03:51 PM
Hi there
last week was really good
a lot of new and good things happening!
I went for a coaching session and changed my decisions about my career.
I've known for a while that the law field I've been studying is not my passion and I don't see myself working there in the future. I've known this but before I was to afraid to act on it but there in the coaching session I finally decided to change my career towards a new direction. quitting on my old path in Law school.
I realized I am just holding on something because I was afraid going for something new even if I knew I had lost all interest in it. I was just holding on that because I thought it would be smart to finish and blah blah secure income and save job .. all boring because I KNOW it wouldn't make me happy so I am leaving all the fear of the unknown behind and I actually I feel great about that! so much FREEDOM
I have some ideas about what I want to do instead. an interesting masters course in global connections is one option but nothing has been decided yet and that is just all right!
I have a save job until the summer ends and after that things will just figure out on its own!
I've never felt like that before. I have usually wanted to have everything planned and save and it has been very uncomfortable for me to not knowing what to do. But it's all different now.
I just feel the freedom and somehow feel like I am becoming more spiritual. Have the intuition that I am going to find my calling soon and it is a great feeling and something I can't describe but I just know there is something awesome going to happen!
I've been reading a lot about mindfulness and the book A new earth by Eckhart Tolle is just a rare diamond. That book just resonates with everything I've been thinking so far and it all makes so much sense to me!!
Sometimes I think that I'm going mad. I am trying to ground myself and not allow myself to fly too high in the sky.
I'm on a good terms with my ex and we are remaining good friends, have met twice since the BU and still it just feels good to talk to him.
Even if its not the same intimate relationship as we had it's good to have him as a friend and I'd like to keep it that way. I don't feel hurt or anything when we talk. He is good guy and I've never felt like that before that I wanted to stay friends with exes.
I dno if that's normal but I don't have any hopes for us to get back together or anything like that.
I mean I still have some feelings but that is normal I guess, can't shut down loving feelings that easily :/
But the most important is that I just feel at peace with myself and the situation unconciously and I feel like I don't want him back.
I want to be with someone that can love me deeply and is sure about his feelings and is ready to move mountains to be with me.
But finding love again is not a priority in my life now. I am just going to enjoy being single and free!
So far I think this subs are really helping me letting go of the past and I am so happy with that I tried it out. Feeling better day by day.
I think I will run this subs at least 32 days, been running it for 22 days now. maybe I'll go for 64 days as I feel that I don't have any resistance. But I'll be patient and see what happens.
I am wondering what subs to try out next...
maybe ASC, LTU or Alpha Female.
I wish they had 5g subs on the AF. Does anyone know when that will be released?
best wishes
Red_Panda
last week was really good
a lot of new and good things happening!I went for a coaching session and changed my decisions about my career.
I've known for a while that the law field I've been studying is not my passion and I don't see myself working there in the future. I've known this but before I was to afraid to act on it but there in the coaching session I finally decided to change my career towards a new direction. quitting on my old path in Law school.
I realized I am just holding on something because I was afraid going for something new even if I knew I had lost all interest in it. I was just holding on that because I thought it would be smart to finish and blah blah secure income and save job .. all boring because I KNOW it wouldn't make me happy so I am leaving all the fear of the unknown behind and I actually I feel great about that! so much FREEDOM
I have some ideas about what I want to do instead. an interesting masters course in global connections is one option but nothing has been decided yet and that is just all right!
I have a save job until the summer ends and after that things will just figure out on its own!
I've never felt like that before. I have usually wanted to have everything planned and save and it has been very uncomfortable for me to not knowing what to do. But it's all different now.
I just feel the freedom and somehow feel like I am becoming more spiritual. Have the intuition that I am going to find my calling soon and it is a great feeling and something I can't describe but I just know there is something awesome going to happen!
I've been reading a lot about mindfulness and the book A new earth by Eckhart Tolle is just a rare diamond. That book just resonates with everything I've been thinking so far and it all makes so much sense to me!!
Sometimes I think that I'm going mad. I am trying to ground myself and not allow myself to fly too high in the sky.
I'm on a good terms with my ex and we are remaining good friends, have met twice since the BU and still it just feels good to talk to him.
Even if its not the same intimate relationship as we had it's good to have him as a friend and I'd like to keep it that way. I don't feel hurt or anything when we talk. He is good guy and I've never felt like that before that I wanted to stay friends with exes.
I dno if that's normal but I don't have any hopes for us to get back together or anything like that.
I mean I still have some feelings but that is normal I guess, can't shut down loving feelings that easily :/
But the most important is that I just feel at peace with myself and the situation unconciously and I feel like I don't want him back.
I want to be with someone that can love me deeply and is sure about his feelings and is ready to move mountains to be with me.
But finding love again is not a priority in my life now. I am just going to enjoy being single and free!
So far I think this subs are really helping me letting go of the past and I am so happy with that I tried it out. Feeling better day by day.
I think I will run this subs at least 32 days, been running it for 22 days now. maybe I'll go for 64 days as I feel that I don't have any resistance. But I'll be patient and see what happens.
I am wondering what subs to try out next...
maybe ASC, LTU or Alpha Female.
I wish they had 5g subs on the AF. Does anyone know when that will be released?
best wishes
Red_Panda
