07-15-2014, 08:08 PM
Stage 1, Day 27
Slept 12 hours, felt tired because of deliberately eating less today.
Had lots of time to practice.
Tomorrow, I will begin recording my "Beginner's Guitar Challenge" program, even though I have no means of exporting the video files, since my video card reader isn't being recognized. I can still get some start and export later, as I'll bring this card reader into its store and see what we can do about it.
It turns out that in the last 30 days, I've put roughly 3,000$ into my bank account. That's pretty cool; I've worked quite hard over this past month, and that's the most I've ever drawn into my account on my own, so I'm proud of that. I've taken more responsibility over my finances, and it shows. My parents are still supporting me through school financially, and yet I've still got my eye on the prize.
On the other hand, I'm beginning to lose patience towards people who've taken no responsibility, and will complain about being broke, even with modest or decent wages. Often, I could easily find a couple hundred dollars per month or more that they spend on booze and/or cigarettes, bar cover and drinks, restaurants and the like.
For homeless people, I've realized that they've gotten the equation backwards. If they've sitting on a corner, holding up a sign, they provide no value, and yet they ask others to provide value to them. If they were focused on providing value first, and not in a calculated, tentative way, then people would be more willing to give. Holding doors, telling jokes, providing a service, etc. Often times, they give negative value by having people feel pity or sadness; I can actually feel that energy, and I'll walk further around. There are, however, people who are homeless, who have taken responsibility for it, and are working hard to escape it in spite of the handicap of poverty. I will absolutely respect those people, and wish the best for them
Of course, it goes much deeper than this, and there are nuances which escape me; maybe a subliminal like "Overcome the Victim Mentality" or "Winner's Mindset" could be made freely available to people who are extremely down on themselves. Sad, that the people who need some of these subliminals the most don't have easy access to them.
Slept 12 hours, felt tired because of deliberately eating less today.
Had lots of time to practice.
Tomorrow, I will begin recording my "Beginner's Guitar Challenge" program, even though I have no means of exporting the video files, since my video card reader isn't being recognized. I can still get some start and export later, as I'll bring this card reader into its store and see what we can do about it.
It turns out that in the last 30 days, I've put roughly 3,000$ into my bank account. That's pretty cool; I've worked quite hard over this past month, and that's the most I've ever drawn into my account on my own, so I'm proud of that. I've taken more responsibility over my finances, and it shows. My parents are still supporting me through school financially, and yet I've still got my eye on the prize.
On the other hand, I'm beginning to lose patience towards people who've taken no responsibility, and will complain about being broke, even with modest or decent wages. Often, I could easily find a couple hundred dollars per month or more that they spend on booze and/or cigarettes, bar cover and drinks, restaurants and the like.
For homeless people, I've realized that they've gotten the equation backwards. If they've sitting on a corner, holding up a sign, they provide no value, and yet they ask others to provide value to them. If they were focused on providing value first, and not in a calculated, tentative way, then people would be more willing to give. Holding doors, telling jokes, providing a service, etc. Often times, they give negative value by having people feel pity or sadness; I can actually feel that energy, and I'll walk further around. There are, however, people who are homeless, who have taken responsibility for it, and are working hard to escape it in spite of the handicap of poverty. I will absolutely respect those people, and wish the best for them
Of course, it goes much deeper than this, and there are nuances which escape me; maybe a subliminal like "Overcome the Victim Mentality" or "Winner's Mindset" could be made freely available to people who are extremely down on themselves. Sad, that the people who need some of these subliminals the most don't have easy access to them.
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