07-10-2014, 05:21 AM
Day 4:
I thought about not posting very often, but I feel some positive changes with the sub. First of all when I woke up I kind of felt at peace, it's quite a good feeling, not very positive or very negative but just between there, floating.
I feel less fearful about things, even though I am not being faced by many just thinking about them is much easier. For example going to work was always the worst thing I could imagine, but since yesterday I don't feel much negativity towards work, just that I need money and working for it is ok.
Had 2 odd dreams:
I was walking around with 2 of my friends and some guy comes up wanting to fight us. We start fighting him one by one for a few rounds, my best friend gets nearly choked. I however seem to be doing quite well, except the fights were as girly as they can get and he didn't seem to hit me much. Oddly I think I was trying to do as much damage without him getting mad and going berserk, which I can relate to my behavior patterns a bit.
2nd dream was about us being around and 3 girls show up. I was the one who approaches first, saying nothing, just tagging along. I was acting in a complete approval seeking way, not saying a word except if they asked me something. And then answering like I was trying to look indifferent, but actually seeking approval.
I thought about not posting very often, but I feel some positive changes with the sub. First of all when I woke up I kind of felt at peace, it's quite a good feeling, not very positive or very negative but just between there, floating.
I feel less fearful about things, even though I am not being faced by many just thinking about them is much easier. For example going to work was always the worst thing I could imagine, but since yesterday I don't feel much negativity towards work, just that I need money and working for it is ok.
Had 2 odd dreams:
I was walking around with 2 of my friends and some guy comes up wanting to fight us. We start fighting him one by one for a few rounds, my best friend gets nearly choked. I however seem to be doing quite well, except the fights were as girly as they can get and he didn't seem to hit me much. Oddly I think I was trying to do as much damage without him getting mad and going berserk, which I can relate to my behavior patterns a bit.
2nd dream was about us being around and 3 girls show up. I was the one who approaches first, saying nothing, just tagging along. I was acting in a complete approval seeking way, not saying a word except if they asked me something. And then answering like I was trying to look indifferent, but actually seeking approval.
INFP-T
"If you dont work on shedding your emotional and spiritual baggage and egoic nature, then you are still a dead weight in society.. offering nothing.." - Anonymous
"If you dont work on shedding your emotional and spiritual baggage and egoic nature, then you are still a dead weight in society.. offering nothing.." - Anonymous
