07-05-2014, 07:57 AM
Stage 6
Day 161 - 175
So I'm 15 days in Stage 6. Feel more alpha than ever. Body language is amazing. My response to people is still mixed, yesterday a guy told me to do something I didn't want to do (not very important but still) and I did it without thinking about it. A few seconds after that, I thought to myself "why did I do that ?". I still don't know but I know I should have not done it ! But I'm more alpha with people of my age (the guy was older than me). Really more alpha. A lot of fear and anxiety about me taking action has been removed. I do what I need/want to do without worrying. I'm also more aware of what's going on in other's people head and adapt my communication. I work with a guy who has got a very big ego. He says stuff like "She should just shut up, I am right, not her. Her opinion has no value. I have all the proofs. I am the best boyfriend ever, I don't understand why she broke up with me. She has got a problem, I'm not the problem !". What I do is that I tell him that I'm not OK with what he says but if he wants to believe that, that's his choice. He responded "Of course I believe that, I'm right, not her !". It makes me laugh, it annoys me a bit but I don't have the power to change him
So I just go with the flow.
My breakup is going better. I have mixed feelings about my ex. I work at the same place than him. Our first day at that place was monday. He tried to say me "hello" but I completely ignored him. He kept staring at me during the whole day and some of my friends kept telling me that "a guy is looking at you all the time" Now, I don't know what that means. I don't know if he regrets me. But I don't think I want to go back together with him, now that I'm not with him anymore I can see that he has got a lot of emotional issues. But a part of me still wants him but I know it's more for the emotional connection with somebody than for himself. But I kept telling myself that maybe I'll try to go back with him.
My future plans are EPRHA, maybe Become Irresistibly Attractive To Handsome Gay Men and after that ASC or Attract your Perfect Boyfriend.
AYPB is a must for me, but maybe it's just my craving for external love. But I know that I should first let go of my old relationship with my ex.
Only 17 days left until the end. Want to start EPRHA so bad !
Bye
-Adri
Day 161 - 175
So I'm 15 days in Stage 6. Feel more alpha than ever. Body language is amazing. My response to people is still mixed, yesterday a guy told me to do something I didn't want to do (not very important but still) and I did it without thinking about it. A few seconds after that, I thought to myself "why did I do that ?". I still don't know but I know I should have not done it ! But I'm more alpha with people of my age (the guy was older than me). Really more alpha. A lot of fear and anxiety about me taking action has been removed. I do what I need/want to do without worrying. I'm also more aware of what's going on in other's people head and adapt my communication. I work with a guy who has got a very big ego. He says stuff like "She should just shut up, I am right, not her. Her opinion has no value. I have all the proofs. I am the best boyfriend ever, I don't understand why she broke up with me. She has got a problem, I'm not the problem !". What I do is that I tell him that I'm not OK with what he says but if he wants to believe that, that's his choice. He responded "Of course I believe that, I'm right, not her !". It makes me laugh, it annoys me a bit but I don't have the power to change him
So I just go with the flow.My breakup is going better. I have mixed feelings about my ex. I work at the same place than him. Our first day at that place was monday. He tried to say me "hello" but I completely ignored him. He kept staring at me during the whole day and some of my friends kept telling me that "a guy is looking at you all the time"
Now, I don't know what that means. I don't know if he regrets me. But I don't think I want to go back together with him, now that I'm not with him anymore I can see that he has got a lot of emotional issues. But a part of me still wants him but I know it's more for the emotional connection with somebody than for himself. But I kept telling myself that maybe I'll try to go back with him.My future plans are EPRHA, maybe Become Irresistibly Attractive To Handsome Gay Men and after that ASC or Attract your Perfect Boyfriend.
AYPB is a must for me, but maybe it's just my craving for external love. But I know that I should first let go of my old relationship with my ex.
Only 17 days left until the end. Want to start EPRHA so bad !
Bye
-Adri
