07-04-2014, 06:13 AM
I'm experimenting with the jungian principle as it extends to life as well, my dislike and distaste for others really being a projection of myself,, my resistance and aversion to others the same. I've had a few run ins with people where I've let go and allowed their insecurities and bull shit to just pass over me and go by - and my relationships, at least professionally and at home when I need people to do things and cooperate are much better (when I really take the few minutes to feel where they're coming from)
That doesn't mean I'm not firm when I have to be, just like I need to be firm with myself.
I've begun lifting at the gym, I've never done it properly so I'm still pushing light weights compared to all the beasts who live at the damn place. But I got a trainer and he keeps telling me he's seriously impressed with my determination and progress - I don't care but still good to hear, might just be down to him trying to motivate me but who gives a shit.
Mentally I'm really slow right now. Maybe because of a lack of sleep
Or because there's so much going on or maybe resistance who knows. At work they want me to apply for a promotion but I don't feel I'm ready, again because some how I'm just taking too long to process and link
Information - I'm close to accepting that I'm a little dumb, but then I think of all the times I've done really intelligent things. Just don't have the infrastructure for healthy brain function, diet exercise will help that hopefully
That doesn't mean I'm not firm when I have to be, just like I need to be firm with myself.
I've begun lifting at the gym, I've never done it properly so I'm still pushing light weights compared to all the beasts who live at the damn place. But I got a trainer and he keeps telling me he's seriously impressed with my determination and progress - I don't care but still good to hear, might just be down to him trying to motivate me but who gives a shit.
Mentally I'm really slow right now. Maybe because of a lack of sleep
Or because there's so much going on or maybe resistance who knows. At work they want me to apply for a promotion but I don't feel I'm ready, again because some how I'm just taking too long to process and link
Information - I'm close to accepting that I'm a little dumb, but then I think of all the times I've done really intelligent things. Just don't have the infrastructure for healthy brain function, diet exercise will help that hopefully
Your task is not to seek for Love, but merely to seek and find all the barriers within yourself that you have built against it.
