06-28-2014, 06:02 AM
I think I'm going to give up fighting my inclination to be alone. I've been worried if I let go completely and stop giving a shit I'll just become some kind of freak - well I don't think that's the case really. I'm working to keep my friends but I don't really have the desire, I'd quite happily carry on alone.
There are a few things which keep me from making an effort. First the thought that any relationship requires effort, and the second is that some of my aversion is that the guys i avoid are all in better places than me - and the truth is they look down on me. I don't like it, but on the other hand being around them is a challenge to stay out of my comfort zone.
There are a few things which keep me from making an effort. First the thought that any relationship requires effort, and the second is that some of my aversion is that the guys i avoid are all in better places than me - and the truth is they look down on me. I don't like it, but on the other hand being around them is a challenge to stay out of my comfort zone.
Your task is not to seek for Love, but merely to seek and find all the barriers within yourself that you have built against it.
