06-28-2014, 12:58 AM
I think I'll give it a week max before restarting am6, ultimately it's not moving on to a new sub so giving it a month after my second run makes more sense.
More conflicts seem to happen, the other night I was at a friends apartment and his flat mate got angry at me and aggressive because I was playing with a football, and asked me to stop or he'd throw me out. I was immediately angry but calm some how and stayed polite - and just said I'll stop if it means that much to him since it's his apartment ordered him to chill the f out (it was unnecessary aggression on his part)
He was extra nice the rest of the evening but i had decided by then a that he was a pr1ck so I was non responsive just because I don't like him - before I would have behaved passive aggressively so it's a step up, set the boundary, respected where my fault was but didn't supplicate.
Dreams I'm having are strange - I had a dream about a guy last week at work who I've been having problems with. He's better than me at the work were doing but Ive done more so he's been looking to make sure he gets enough credit and it's been unpleasant, I was all insecure before because I'm not the best socially and everyone seems to like him where as I'm an outsider - and I wanted him to like me.
Anyway the dream was that I kept offending him in one way or another and he hated me. Last night I had a dream that it was him who was scared of doing the wrong thing while I was just chill and indifferent and even helpful to him because I could see he was insecure.
More conflicts seem to happen, the other night I was at a friends apartment and his flat mate got angry at me and aggressive because I was playing with a football, and asked me to stop or he'd throw me out. I was immediately angry but calm some how and stayed polite - and just said I'll stop if it means that much to him since it's his apartment ordered him to chill the f out (it was unnecessary aggression on his part)
He was extra nice the rest of the evening but i had decided by then a that he was a pr1ck so I was non responsive just because I don't like him - before I would have behaved passive aggressively so it's a step up, set the boundary, respected where my fault was but didn't supplicate.
Dreams I'm having are strange - I had a dream about a guy last week at work who I've been having problems with. He's better than me at the work were doing but Ive done more so he's been looking to make sure he gets enough credit and it's been unpleasant, I was all insecure before because I'm not the best socially and everyone seems to like him where as I'm an outsider - and I wanted him to like me.
Anyway the dream was that I kept offending him in one way or another and he hated me. Last night I had a dream that it was him who was scared of doing the wrong thing while I was just chill and indifferent and even helpful to him because I could see he was insecure.
Your task is not to seek for Love, but merely to seek and find all the barriers within yourself that you have built against it.
