06-25-2014, 06:59 PM
Stage 1, Day 8
It's funny how little I seemed to care about women or sex in the first week. I basically forgot that I'm using a subliminal called 'Sex Magnet'.
That's until today, where I looked at a group of women and smiled, and realised "Oh yeah.. I'm listening to a subliminal to help me with that."
I also realized that I must have less fear, because I put more "out there" verbally, and tend to miscalibrate, because I'm not used to this 'new realm that I've entered'. This could risk pissing people off, and might already have once or twice.
My female coworker keeps asking me very off the wall questions: "do you live alone or with friends?" "how long have you lived alone?", "do you ride roller coasters often?". At one point in the soirée, I was standing behind her, and she was slightly bent over to tend to something at cash. I had it in my mind to lay my hands at her waist and press up against her, but then I came to my senses and realized "hey, I'm at work, and that's a pretty stupid thing to do either way, Dan". She is showing some interest, but I'm not sure about a work colleague.
I'm re-reading "Think and Grow Rich" with much more deliberation than the first read-through 3 years ago. There are plenty of mentions to the emotions of sex, love, and faith. This could apply, especially with sex transmutation.
It's funny how little I seemed to care about women or sex in the first week. I basically forgot that I'm using a subliminal called 'Sex Magnet'.
That's until today, where I looked at a group of women and smiled, and realised "Oh yeah.. I'm listening to a subliminal to help me with that."
I also realized that I must have less fear, because I put more "out there" verbally, and tend to miscalibrate, because I'm not used to this 'new realm that I've entered'. This could risk pissing people off, and might already have once or twice.
My female coworker keeps asking me very off the wall questions: "do you live alone or with friends?" "how long have you lived alone?", "do you ride roller coasters often?". At one point in the soirée, I was standing behind her, and she was slightly bent over to tend to something at cash. I had it in my mind to lay my hands at her waist and press up against her, but then I came to my senses and realized "hey, I'm at work, and that's a pretty stupid thing to do either way, Dan". She is showing some interest, but I'm not sure about a work colleague.
I'm re-reading "Think and Grow Rich" with much more deliberation than the first read-through 3 years ago. There are plenty of mentions to the emotions of sex, love, and faith. This could apply, especially with sex transmutation.
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