06-25-2014, 02:55 PM
Last night of stage five - this stage much more positive than the others.
Feeling of resilience , as though a lot can and will happen to me, the highs and lows aren't so important as the growth and the journey.
Women at first were much more responsive to me, id catch them just staring at me.
Generally calmer - things that piss me off really should piss me off, things that should get me down do but I come back and try and do something about it.
I'm gonna have to do this whole damn thing again - though I'm dying to move on to sm3 or the new base - I have more work to do with this sub.
I'm scared though - as if there isn't enough time. I'm approaching 30 very soon and I've not lived nearly the life I wished I had - someone told me that by the time you're 35 it's basically over for growth and change , and that much of your personality is inalterable after around 28 - I'm going to have to refute this. I'm late to the game so I realise I'm gonna have to play harder than anyone else in order to move ahead.
Sarge, honestly when I read what you
Write I see my experiences almost identically explained - social skills are an issue for me in the same way as you for instance.
Pre sleep rant over
Darwin out
Feeling of resilience , as though a lot can and will happen to me, the highs and lows aren't so important as the growth and the journey.
Women at first were much more responsive to me, id catch them just staring at me.
Generally calmer - things that piss me off really should piss me off, things that should get me down do but I come back and try and do something about it.
I'm gonna have to do this whole damn thing again - though I'm dying to move on to sm3 or the new base - I have more work to do with this sub.
I'm scared though - as if there isn't enough time. I'm approaching 30 very soon and I've not lived nearly the life I wished I had - someone told me that by the time you're 35 it's basically over for growth and change , and that much of your personality is inalterable after around 28 - I'm going to have to refute this. I'm late to the game so I realise I'm gonna have to play harder than anyone else in order to move ahead.
Sarge, honestly when I read what you
Write I see my experiences almost identically explained - social skills are an issue for me in the same way as you for instance.
Pre sleep rant over
Darwin out
Your task is not to seek for Love, but merely to seek and find all the barriers within yourself that you have built against it.
