12-01-2010, 09:24 AM
With me only being 3 days into stage 4, it's hard to pinpoint what's going on, and as far as I know, my brain is still playing catch-up from the earlier stages. The dreams I had last night were a doozie that's for sure!
Anyway, it's rather amusing to me what the alpha male sub is doing at times... making me much more outspoken when I feel like being outspoken (have to be in the mood... can't force it!). I was at my grandmother's sisters house for a thanksgiving visit and it was me, my mom, my grandmother, her sister, and my mom's aunt and her husband and her son. We were talking and stuff and I forgot most of what was being said but something was said by my mother and I called shenanigans which took her aback. Then I was saying some sarky stuff.
On a phone convo to me from my mom a couple days ago, my mom told me that her aunt never saw that side of me come out (lol).
I thought that was amusing to say the least because I'm becoming more like that, revealing my true personality instead of covering it up. Things should pick up quite a bit now that I'm in the 2nd half of the Alpha Journey.
I just got to hold on to my current job until early next year (we get a performance incentive check around the end of Jan) and then I'm going to start job hunting which will allow me to go gallivanting around in the evenings (I currently work 2nd shift).
I'm definitely grateful that I have a job but at the same time, I feel like I deserve better (work and pay, of course!) so hence, the job hunt begins next year.
It's time I moved on because a few of the people I work with rub me the wrong way so it's time for some change. I work with a supervisor and director that are "always right" no matter what (I'm sure you guys can relate to that!) despite the many mistakes they make.
Anyway, it's rather amusing to me what the alpha male sub is doing at times... making me much more outspoken when I feel like being outspoken (have to be in the mood... can't force it!). I was at my grandmother's sisters house for a thanksgiving visit and it was me, my mom, my grandmother, her sister, and my mom's aunt and her husband and her son. We were talking and stuff and I forgot most of what was being said but something was said by my mother and I called shenanigans which took her aback. Then I was saying some sarky stuff.
On a phone convo to me from my mom a couple days ago, my mom told me that her aunt never saw that side of me come out (lol).
I thought that was amusing to say the least because I'm becoming more like that, revealing my true personality instead of covering it up. Things should pick up quite a bit now that I'm in the 2nd half of the Alpha Journey.
I just got to hold on to my current job until early next year (we get a performance incentive check around the end of Jan) and then I'm going to start job hunting which will allow me to go gallivanting around in the evenings (I currently work 2nd shift).
I'm definitely grateful that I have a job but at the same time, I feel like I deserve better (work and pay, of course!) so hence, the job hunt begins next year.
It's time I moved on because a few of the people I work with rub me the wrong way so it's time for some change. I work with a supervisor and director that are "always right" no matter what (I'm sure you guys can relate to that!) despite the many mistakes they make.
Get your pickles!!!
