11-29-2010, 07:04 PM
oh my god i cant even BEGIN to tell you how amazing it was to find this thread!!! i have been experiencing the SAME exact things as you and I am literally at my wits end and dont know whether to keep continuing or not. I have been out of the house for college and law school for the last 6 years and just came home in august to study for the boards. I thought it would be a wonderful time to improve myself and go into subliminal mp3s. I tried a free one from another site about ending anxiety and it actually seemed to calm me (im a worry wart) and so then when I saw the absolute self confidence mp3 i jumped on it!!
i lack self confidence but i am GREAT at faking it. i have an extremely easy time meeting men and I have been in one relationship after another . and i genuinely mean it when i say every guy ive date was an amazing catch. i make friends very easily and initially when i meet people ive been told i exude self confidence. but to be completely honest i am extremely insecure and barely trust myself on most things. i have gotten great at putting on a facade but my lack of self confidence is extremely distressing. to the point where im always looking for ways to get over it! when i started listening to this mp3 in octoberish my mind went CRAZY. thats an understatement. my mind was going through CRAZY fights and it felt like all the work i had done with the ending anxiety mp3 went to waste =( a few days into the mp3 world war III broke out between my mother and I. I was raised in one of those strict asian households where discipline was REALLY overdone. ive always had a lot of resentment but i always dealt with it. that morning, I BLEW UP at my mother and couldnt control my emotions i was crying and a COMPLETE MESS!! omg i went on and on about things from like my 5th birthday! the day was absolutely crazy and the weirdest thing ever is the next day i woke up and i could not care less about all the resentment i had against her. it had just completely gone away. even right now im embarassed to think i reacted that way because it doesnt affect me AS much anymore. i tried to think that i had just released years of resentment (i do think it made major improvement) but going through it was AWFUL. needless to say, i stopped listening to the mp3 that day
then two weeks ago my boyfriend out of the blue broke up with me and i was completely blind sided. i was so confused and all over the place so i picked this mp3 up again. figure my world had crashed (at the time) what could make it worse right? im a few days in and again all sorts of things are happening. ive spent the last two days fighting with my extended family now over just crazy things and im beginning to grow weary of this. is it worth it? i have studying which is much more important to me to focus on. i know these emotional outbursts of mine are completely not normal. im a little scared everyday. is this doing more good than bad???
im so so glad i found your thread. when i looked on here back in october no one had written much about it. i hope someone who has hopefully been through this terrible mess has some advice to give. until then, let hope it gets better soon =/
i lack self confidence but i am GREAT at faking it. i have an extremely easy time meeting men and I have been in one relationship after another . and i genuinely mean it when i say every guy ive date was an amazing catch. i make friends very easily and initially when i meet people ive been told i exude self confidence. but to be completely honest i am extremely insecure and barely trust myself on most things. i have gotten great at putting on a facade but my lack of self confidence is extremely distressing. to the point where im always looking for ways to get over it! when i started listening to this mp3 in octoberish my mind went CRAZY. thats an understatement. my mind was going through CRAZY fights and it felt like all the work i had done with the ending anxiety mp3 went to waste =( a few days into the mp3 world war III broke out between my mother and I. I was raised in one of those strict asian households where discipline was REALLY overdone. ive always had a lot of resentment but i always dealt with it. that morning, I BLEW UP at my mother and couldnt control my emotions i was crying and a COMPLETE MESS!! omg i went on and on about things from like my 5th birthday! the day was absolutely crazy and the weirdest thing ever is the next day i woke up and i could not care less about all the resentment i had against her. it had just completely gone away. even right now im embarassed to think i reacted that way because it doesnt affect me AS much anymore. i tried to think that i had just released years of resentment (i do think it made major improvement) but going through it was AWFUL. needless to say, i stopped listening to the mp3 that day
then two weeks ago my boyfriend out of the blue broke up with me and i was completely blind sided. i was so confused and all over the place so i picked this mp3 up again. figure my world had crashed (at the time) what could make it worse right? im a few days in and again all sorts of things are happening. ive spent the last two days fighting with my extended family now over just crazy things and im beginning to grow weary of this. is it worth it? i have studying which is much more important to me to focus on. i know these emotional outbursts of mine are completely not normal. im a little scared everyday. is this doing more good than bad???
im so so glad i found your thread. when i looked on here back in october no one had written much about it. i hope someone who has hopefully been through this terrible mess has some advice to give. until then, let hope it gets better soon =/
