Been gone for quite a while, I have been suffering a serious case of no internet past 2 weeks. I have been sticking to the program only skipping one day due to being so drunk that I simply forgot and didn't feel I could do anything the next day.
So this would be my day 23:
Time spent listening is quite inconsistent where about 40% of the days are 20h and then the rest around 14h+ with 2 days of 8/12h.
It's hard to summarize all of the days, but I'll give my best. I have experienced some serious anger issues over everything and everyone. I feel that I have some serious shame and guild inside, about so many things and top that with being afraid of almost everything although I have developed one heck of a mask for hiding my fears.
I recently read a few good books, one of them being about ADD "Delivered from distraction" which felt like such a relief to read and if anyone here has ADD I'm sure they can relate to the struggles of inconsistency, anger and uncontrollable hyper attention.
It is really hard to see the progress towards being more confident, it's rather like all I can feel is this uncontrollable anger and resentment.
The last thing would be that I will be working starting tomorrow, doing some repetitive manual labor, hopefully I can enjoy it more than I enjoy the thought of it.
Reading wise I would recommend "Love Yourself Like Your Life Depends On It" to everyone, see if you can find the connection between EFT and the message. And its only 35 pages long!!!
So this would be my day 23:
Time spent listening is quite inconsistent where about 40% of the days are 20h and then the rest around 14h+ with 2 days of 8/12h.
It's hard to summarize all of the days, but I'll give my best. I have experienced some serious anger issues over everything and everyone. I feel that I have some serious shame and guild inside, about so many things and top that with being afraid of almost everything although I have developed one heck of a mask for hiding my fears.
I recently read a few good books, one of them being about ADD "Delivered from distraction" which felt like such a relief to read and if anyone here has ADD I'm sure they can relate to the struggles of inconsistency, anger and uncontrollable hyper attention.
It is really hard to see the progress towards being more confident, it's rather like all I can feel is this uncontrollable anger and resentment.
The last thing would be that I will be working starting tomorrow, doing some repetitive manual labor, hopefully I can enjoy it more than I enjoy the thought of it.
Reading wise I would recommend "Love Yourself Like Your Life Depends On It" to everyone, see if you can find the connection between EFT and the message. And its only 35 pages long!!!
INFP-T
"If you dont work on shedding your emotional and spiritual baggage and egoic nature, then you are still a dead weight in society.. offering nothing.." - Anonymous
"If you dont work on shedding your emotional and spiritual baggage and egoic nature, then you are still a dead weight in society.. offering nothing.." - Anonymous
