Jennie's Journal with Emotional Pain Relief and Healing Aid

[jennielee]

Day 58: i noticed today that i had an adverse reaction to a term someone used in a conversation that i conciously associate with my ex. I have been exposed to this term many times over with no reaction, but today for some reason was different. The suggestion was made that perhaps its a trigger word that had been placed during hypnosis. Either way it has me in a bad mood. Today was odd in a number of ways. My lab tests came back "failed" and no one seemed to have a clue what that meant, and they only decided to call the lab after i waited for well over an hour. After everything they plan to call me when they figure out whats up with the lab. I have never seen such gross incompetence. Failed usually means a bad sample.. so why none of them know that i have no idea. But honestly im sick of having my time wasted.

In other news im still working to make my own choices and own them. Alot of choices i made during the time i was with my ex were made for the wrong reasons. So now im reexamining them to make sure its still the right choice and to make sure it has the right reason behind it.