11-20-2010, 10:26 AM
Weekly recap time!
This week has been good despite some moodiness (anger and bitterness coming up at times) but more letting go continues... and that's a good thing.
One thing that Alpha Male does is push me out of my comfort zone more... and it's a good thing since the subconscious is causing me to get out more. IMHO, the subconscious has far more effect on the ego than the conscious. As of now, the subconscious and the ego are duking it out bigtime.
I wrote about the "caged animal syndrome" in others journals and I'm definitely having that happen to me. Even though I can be in a bad mood, I still want to get out... just to get out and do anything instead of staying in (which sucks). It's like Andrew said in another members Alpha Journal... just go out and put the Alpha Male program to work.
Another thing that Alpha Male is addressing is my wishy-washiness which I am grateful for.
Next week is my last full week of stage 3 and I start stage 4 on the 28th.
I'm having dreams w/ women in them as of late.. I've been going through a dry spell of "women dreams" lately, instead having the regular bizarre dreams.
Neediness is getting smashed bigtime... much more so now than before. Right now, I'm not wanting to be tied to any particular person.
Shannon wasn't kidding when he said the "big guns" come out in stage 3. I'm more independent now vs. the past. I also feel far more at ease around others than I used to be. I'm still quiet and I'm introverted but that's okay. There is a definite positive to the strong, silent type, AFAIC.
Last night at the salsa social, I had this one girl cracking up like crazy and I wasn't even trying to be funny. I had cold hands from coming in out from the cold and she said, "you have cold hands!!" and I said, "maybe you can warm them up" and she goes into hysterical laughter. We start dancing to a merengue tune and me and her go round and round and I started getting dizzy. So I say, "we need to go the other way because I'm getting dizzy." More crazy laughter. I then told her the reason why I was so late was because I just got off work. I said more stuff pertaining to my job and she laughed again.
So I was saying stuff... not caring and she was laughing her head off.
My coworker at my workplace invited me to a party thrown by her and her husband so I'm going to shoot her a text later on. It should be fun.
This week has been good despite some moodiness (anger and bitterness coming up at times) but more letting go continues... and that's a good thing.
One thing that Alpha Male does is push me out of my comfort zone more... and it's a good thing since the subconscious is causing me to get out more. IMHO, the subconscious has far more effect on the ego than the conscious. As of now, the subconscious and the ego are duking it out bigtime.
I wrote about the "caged animal syndrome" in others journals and I'm definitely having that happen to me. Even though I can be in a bad mood, I still want to get out... just to get out and do anything instead of staying in (which sucks). It's like Andrew said in another members Alpha Journal... just go out and put the Alpha Male program to work.
Another thing that Alpha Male is addressing is my wishy-washiness which I am grateful for.
Next week is my last full week of stage 3 and I start stage 4 on the 28th.
I'm having dreams w/ women in them as of late.. I've been going through a dry spell of "women dreams" lately, instead having the regular bizarre dreams.
Neediness is getting smashed bigtime... much more so now than before. Right now, I'm not wanting to be tied to any particular person.
Shannon wasn't kidding when he said the "big guns" come out in stage 3. I'm more independent now vs. the past. I also feel far more at ease around others than I used to be. I'm still quiet and I'm introverted but that's okay. There is a definite positive to the strong, silent type, AFAIC.
Last night at the salsa social, I had this one girl cracking up like crazy and I wasn't even trying to be funny. I had cold hands from coming in out from the cold and she said, "you have cold hands!!" and I said, "maybe you can warm them up" and she goes into hysterical laughter. We start dancing to a merengue tune and me and her go round and round and I started getting dizzy. So I say, "we need to go the other way because I'm getting dizzy." More crazy laughter. I then told her the reason why I was so late was because I just got off work. I said more stuff pertaining to my job and she laughed again.
So I was saying stuff... not caring and she was laughing her head off.
My coworker at my workplace invited me to a party thrown by her and her husband so I'm going to shoot her a text later on. It should be fun.
Get your pickles!!!
