11-12-2010, 01:28 PM
Hey Mat,
I can pretty much relate to what you’ve described here, I have also walked around for years while thinking that there was something fundamentally wrong with me, along with being very self-conscious and scared of other people’s opinions and thoughts about me, because if they would say something negative it would only confirm what I already thought about myself.
It’s only in the last few years that I’ve come to the realization that it was all in my head, and that through a few traumatic events (mostly caused by people that had issues of their own, but felt like projecting them onto me so they could feel better for a whole 2 minutes) my own self image became worse and worse because you’ll actually start looking and attracting evidence, and when you start looking for something you’re bound to find it even if contrary evidence is staring you right in the face.
When I first started using the ASC sub a lot of things changed for me, it made me realize that it had been a very long time since I felt particularly happy about myself, and that I had a lot less negative thoughts when I was in public places. I also noticed that I was less restrained about speaking up my mind and just being myself. Even though I did manage to build my confidence up a bit in the last few years, it was nothing compared to this, this was a newly found freedom.
It’s actually a great sign that your subconscious is fighting against the subliminals, it really hates change (even good change) especially if some concepts have been drilled in ferociously by you for years. It likes being sure of itself, and it will attack anything that proves it otherwise. It will absolutely try to sabotage your efforts, emphasizing your (past) “failures” to conjure up more evidence so after it made you quit it can tell you “Haha, I told you so”. But keep listening to the subliminals (since it’s no effort, and you have so much to gain), and to yourself instead of your subconscious, and good times will come
Good luck!
I can pretty much relate to what you’ve described here, I have also walked around for years while thinking that there was something fundamentally wrong with me, along with being very self-conscious and scared of other people’s opinions and thoughts about me, because if they would say something negative it would only confirm what I already thought about myself.
It’s only in the last few years that I’ve come to the realization that it was all in my head, and that through a few traumatic events (mostly caused by people that had issues of their own, but felt like projecting them onto me so they could feel better for a whole 2 minutes) my own self image became worse and worse because you’ll actually start looking and attracting evidence, and when you start looking for something you’re bound to find it even if contrary evidence is staring you right in the face.
When I first started using the ASC sub a lot of things changed for me, it made me realize that it had been a very long time since I felt particularly happy about myself, and that I had a lot less negative thoughts when I was in public places. I also noticed that I was less restrained about speaking up my mind and just being myself. Even though I did manage to build my confidence up a bit in the last few years, it was nothing compared to this, this was a newly found freedom.
It’s actually a great sign that your subconscious is fighting against the subliminals, it really hates change (even good change) especially if some concepts have been drilled in ferociously by you for years. It likes being sure of itself, and it will attack anything that proves it otherwise. It will absolutely try to sabotage your efforts, emphasizing your (past) “failures” to conjure up more evidence so after it made you quit it can tell you “Haha, I told you so”. But keep listening to the subliminals (since it’s no effort, and you have so much to gain), and to yourself instead of your subconscious, and good times will come
Good luck!
