Stage 2 Day 14: i can look at movie stars in photo shoots and see them as a normal person.they are not that big as they used to be.i see them more as individual instead of heroes. that's a major shift in thinking.i used too look out for definition and symbols of being powerful in other people but every day passes that effect is fading.i can't say how deep it was.
i'm about 183 cm but still i feel short.i look at other people and compare myself to them.another unhealthy thing is i compare myself to my ex and my friend(a little taller and bigger than me,that even motivate me to get bigger) it's like i have to be taller than her otherwise i'm weak.so stupid.in other hand i'm starting to accept my height but at the same time trying to improve myself.maybe some pills that fills between bones and making muscles which take us to adding weight plan
i ate more than usual today.just need to add 3-4 small meals to my diet.planning to continue this strategy until meet the goals.
financial situation is getting under control still i have to pay some small loans,nothing to worry if i get a job.when i get lazy for listening to sub i say hey you paid 2.6 $ every day for this sub and that works.
have strong willing to read erotic novels.that kills my energy more than actual porn.not something to be proud of. . .
actually i have only one close friends that we hang out during the week not because i'm not cool because i'm so picky about who i hang out with.the reason i choose him is in addition of having fun i can talk to him about important stuff in life.like work ,future ,being successful.most of guys i see are so into chasing girls.they even don't do that right!
in general i'm happy about my choice,but i can't enjoy the road trip as much as i want to.
i'm about 183 cm but still i feel short.i look at other people and compare myself to them.another unhealthy thing is i compare myself to my ex and my friend(a little taller and bigger than me,that even motivate me to get bigger) it's like i have to be taller than her otherwise i'm weak.so stupid.in other hand i'm starting to accept my height but at the same time trying to improve myself.maybe some pills that fills between bones and making muscles which take us to adding weight plan
i ate more than usual today.just need to add 3-4 small meals to my diet.planning to continue this strategy until meet the goals.
financial situation is getting under control still i have to pay some small loans,nothing to worry if i get a job.when i get lazy for listening to sub i say hey you paid 2.6 $ every day for this sub and that works.
have strong willing to read erotic novels.that kills my energy more than actual porn.not something to be proud of. . .
actually i have only one close friends that we hang out during the week not because i'm not cool because i'm so picky about who i hang out with.the reason i choose him is in addition of having fun i can talk to him about important stuff in life.like work ,future ,being successful.most of guys i see are so into chasing girls.they even don't do that right!
in general i'm happy about my choice,but i can't enjoy the road trip as much as i want to.
where attention goes energy flows and result show
