06-01-2014, 07:47 AM
Guys, thanks for the supportive words.
I wasn't going to post anymore until I had some positive things to report back.
I would really have hoped to be a solid alpha by now. But the truth is I kind of have a schlep rock personality at the moment. I'm a bit uncool- I go out and I can feel like my energy is negative and it bums people out sometimes.
I mostly just want to be alone, I'm embarrassed about the way I've behaved with people, where I've been awkward and weird with people and I don't want to embarrass myself again. Also have quite low energy.
Some things I've noticed that are good. I've used my creativity to start setting up a few businesses, I'm coming up with ideas for other opportunities as well, and have firm goals to be able to quit my job by a certain time.
When I do meet girls, they seem to respond well to me. I don't know if this is am6 or what, but they do seem to want to look after me. The other day I was walking along and I saw this hot girl and I just though hey, I'll go talk to her, I had no fear, I really didn't care - I've not felt that way before about just going up to a random girl - she disappeared before I could do
Anything in the end but still that I was prepared to and it's something totally out of my character is good.
I'm thinking about what I'm going to do next. Maybe run am6 again, possibly run Shannon's new program for basf, wm or LTU.
I need to kick up my self esteem, and motivation a lot - so if the basf has the sort of ofgs and self esteem enhancement as LTU as well it would be perfect - I seem to self sabotage a lot.
I wasn't going to post anymore until I had some positive things to report back.
I would really have hoped to be a solid alpha by now. But the truth is I kind of have a schlep rock personality at the moment. I'm a bit uncool- I go out and I can feel like my energy is negative and it bums people out sometimes.
I mostly just want to be alone, I'm embarrassed about the way I've behaved with people, where I've been awkward and weird with people and I don't want to embarrass myself again. Also have quite low energy.
Some things I've noticed that are good. I've used my creativity to start setting up a few businesses, I'm coming up with ideas for other opportunities as well, and have firm goals to be able to quit my job by a certain time.
When I do meet girls, they seem to respond well to me. I don't know if this is am6 or what, but they do seem to want to look after me. The other day I was walking along and I saw this hot girl and I just though hey, I'll go talk to her, I had no fear, I really didn't care - I've not felt that way before about just going up to a random girl - she disappeared before I could do
Anything in the end but still that I was prepared to and it's something totally out of my character is good.
I'm thinking about what I'm going to do next. Maybe run am6 again, possibly run Shannon's new program for basf, wm or LTU.
I need to kick up my self esteem, and motivation a lot - so if the basf has the sort of ofgs and self esteem enhancement as LTU as well it would be perfect - I seem to self sabotage a lot.
Your task is not to seek for Love, but merely to seek and find all the barriers within yourself that you have built against it.
