day 12. I went to a spanish bar when my uncle, yeah he's single and young looking but anyway when we got there hardly anyone there then it filled up, lots of dancing and so I noticed this chick kept dancing but not really in the dancefloor. I go up to them, I tell her girlfriends "do you mind if I take your friend to the dancefloor" they didn't mind as they giggled and I looked at the chick and said lets go, she was hesistant at first but then I was like "come, your friends let me" so she came, we danced, exchanged names, etc while dancing, When we stopped dancing I asked for her number she said I'll give it to you at the end of the night. I really didn't understand why, but she didn't give a reason so I didn't chase after her. I then stood outside the dancefloor and got really into my head, thinking deep thoughts and not being present. I was trying to analyze everything. I'm usually an analyzer but this was different, I was trying to pick up on girls reactions when guys were approaching and I saw so much beta/needyness in them. I told myself to stop caring about how others are, but then tall, good looking guys who can pick up girls with there looks were around. I thought to myself I was I was taller, etc..I'm 5"10 which is decent height but I really want to be around 6"1. I'm pretty good looking myself, not a 10 but I'd say 7ish. If I was fit i'd say 8ish. not sure why I'm telling you guys this but its to get a picture of my self esteem about myself.
I'm insecure about my height, penis size, sexual performance and my ego kicks in once in awhile but thanks to LTU it died down lots, balanced it a bit more still not perfect tho. Anyways, I spot another chick I'm interested in, happens to be we're leaving at the same time so I go up to her and ask wheres shes from etc, a little bit of chatting then I ask "do you mind if I get your number" she then came up with the "I have a bf line" which she shit tested me for. I was like oh well maybe ill get your fb, shes like haha you don't know my last name and i said we'll see if I find you and I left. I wish I was more direct and aggressive with her, by taking out my phone, giving it to her and then tell her to put her number in, I believe that would've worked much better. oh well.
I'm insecure about my height, penis size, sexual performance and my ego kicks in once in awhile but thanks to LTU it died down lots, balanced it a bit more still not perfect tho. Anyways, I spot another chick I'm interested in, happens to be we're leaving at the same time so I go up to her and ask wheres shes from etc, a little bit of chatting then I ask "do you mind if I get your number" she then came up with the "I have a bf line" which she shit tested me for. I was like oh well maybe ill get your fb, shes like haha you don't know my last name and i said we'll see if I find you and I left. I wish I was more direct and aggressive with her, by taking out my phone, giving it to her and then tell her to put her number in, I believe that would've worked much better. oh well.
