Day 4: Tried doing 20 hours, ended up doing around 17/18.
Definitely felt something, I think it's that resistance thing everyone has been talking about. I can remember 4 dreams from the night. All of them were quite aggressive so my subconscious must really be trying to show me why I can't be confident.
Dreams: I remember 3 being about me escaping form people and they were aggressively following me.
In the first dream I was actually killed being shot in the head which made me wake up feeling like I was sleeping in a sauna. I was holding the gun but somehow one of the guys kept trying to approach anyways and all I could think of was that I can't shoot him since I might go to the prison, not even to the leg or anything, so he grabbed the gun and shot me and my friend.
Can't remember about the rest of the dreams anymore, but the first one was quite shocking, kept me up and thinking for quite a few hours. What I can remember from rest of the dreams though is that they were all related to my fears and waking up from them made me feel ashamed for not being able to do the right thing.
Feeling quite depressed over them right now.
Although I didn't like being scared to that level during all night by various dreams I could see more clearly what the things were that kept holding me back in a big way from reaching my potential.
Almost forgot to add that I developed some serious anger towards my father for doing some things and not confronting his fears from his childhood. For always saying one thing and then acting the opposite. For not teaching me how to be a man. For so many more things which I can't mention here.
Although the thinking material is quite heavy on me right now, I feel pretty confident due to the program and the fact that I decided to dig out my own demons and face them in order to overcome them. Beginning to have some serious faith in this program and seeing how and why it works.
So amazing, it doesn't program your mind to accept everything how it is and blah blah believe that you're confident. Dig up the reasons that you're not confident, make peace with them and move forward.
Amazing work Shannon, can't express my gratitude for your service to the self improvement industry, and going about the programs with an attitude of truth and justice unlike some who become internally dominated on the profit side of the business.
Edit: Feeling a whole lot of resistance, my eyebrows feel like they are having cramps from all the tension in them. Trying to learn the principles of EFT tapping to release on these resistances.
Definitely felt something, I think it's that resistance thing everyone has been talking about. I can remember 4 dreams from the night. All of them were quite aggressive so my subconscious must really be trying to show me why I can't be confident.
Dreams: I remember 3 being about me escaping form people and they were aggressively following me.
In the first dream I was actually killed being shot in the head which made me wake up feeling like I was sleeping in a sauna. I was holding the gun but somehow one of the guys kept trying to approach anyways and all I could think of was that I can't shoot him since I might go to the prison, not even to the leg or anything, so he grabbed the gun and shot me and my friend.
Can't remember about the rest of the dreams anymore, but the first one was quite shocking, kept me up and thinking for quite a few hours. What I can remember from rest of the dreams though is that they were all related to my fears and waking up from them made me feel ashamed for not being able to do the right thing.
Feeling quite depressed over them right now.
Although I didn't like being scared to that level during all night by various dreams I could see more clearly what the things were that kept holding me back in a big way from reaching my potential.
Almost forgot to add that I developed some serious anger towards my father for doing some things and not confronting his fears from his childhood. For always saying one thing and then acting the opposite. For not teaching me how to be a man. For so many more things which I can't mention here.
Although the thinking material is quite heavy on me right now, I feel pretty confident due to the program and the fact that I decided to dig out my own demons and face them in order to overcome them. Beginning to have some serious faith in this program and seeing how and why it works.
So amazing, it doesn't program your mind to accept everything how it is and blah blah believe that you're confident. Dig up the reasons that you're not confident, make peace with them and move forward.
Amazing work Shannon, can't express my gratitude for your service to the self improvement industry, and going about the programs with an attitude of truth and justice unlike some who become internally dominated on the profit side of the business.
Edit: Feeling a whole lot of resistance, my eyebrows feel like they are having cramps from all the tension in them. Trying to learn the principles of EFT tapping to release on these resistances.
INFP-T
"If you dont work on shedding your emotional and spiritual baggage and egoic nature, then you are still a dead weight in society.. offering nothing.." - Anonymous
"If you dont work on shedding your emotional and spiritual baggage and egoic nature, then you are still a dead weight in society.. offering nothing.." - Anonymous
