Alpha to Omega: Ronatello's Alpha Journey

[ronatello]

Another weekly recap. This marks the first full week of stage 3 for me. One thing that I'm noticing that is rather jumping out at me is the letting go of what others think of me... an example of that is exercising in the apartment complex gym. Normally at night, if people are exercising, they close the blinds so nobody can see them. I'm like, "I really don't care if I'm seen or not" crap like that doesn't bother me like it used to. I had fun at the salsa dance last night as well. My "partner" didn't show up, opting to go watch Hamlet instead. Whatever. Good looking female salseros are a dime a dozen (and it felt like I danced with a dozen last night, LOL!) so no worries. I truly have come a long way in a short time, thanks to Cory's product and Shannon's subliminals. 2 years ago, doing what I'm doing now was completely out of my reality.
This week, I've had some anger and irritability come up (people's BS) along with a few bad moods scattered here and there.
And another side effect of the increased self confidence is also increased sexual confidence (dancing VERY close to women being one example). There is an urge to express my sexuality more so now than in the past. With that being said, sexual confidence has high self confidence and strong positive self image as prerequisites, IMHO. A part of me is wanting to show off... now that I"m going to the gym and all... And this wanting to show off has nothing to do with validating myself or to gain anyone's approval. It's more wanting to do it just because I really want to.
I'm having to contend with a frustrated late teen female coworker at work. She talked to me for what seemed like an eternity yesterday evening (Friday) about this and that (not going into details here...). She's married and not very happy (why people get married so soon in life just boggles my mind... really now!)