05-27-2014, 01:36 AM
Stage 2 day 21:
Powerful realization about who I am and I what I like to do, my natural drive.
Since Three weeks ago I have been unconsciously looking for answer, I have been watching old Manga like DBZ. I just discovered why I was doing that, I was looking for my inner emotions about my past and my natural being. I have been search for things that bring me other stuff than this strict logical live I have been living with my computer. I am currently in peace relax zen mood, my awareness about my feeling are way up higher than usual. I'm more and more thinking that my current job is not what I really like to do. I'm avoiding to live my real drive because I'm a bit afraid I might fail. And I'm really good at computer programming but this overly logical job is pissing me off more and more. Maybe it's just the people I work with currently but I feel it's more than.
Yesterday I had a dream where my friend where trying to fight/kill me and another night I was taking picture of a female friend of mine (hot).
I'm still fighting some stuff internally but I'm getting clearer every day.
Powerful realization about who I am and I what I like to do, my natural drive.
Since Three weeks ago I have been unconsciously looking for answer, I have been watching old Manga like DBZ. I just discovered why I was doing that, I was looking for my inner emotions about my past and my natural being. I have been search for things that bring me other stuff than this strict logical live I have been living with my computer. I am currently in peace relax zen mood, my awareness about my feeling are way up higher than usual. I'm more and more thinking that my current job is not what I really like to do. I'm avoiding to live my real drive because I'm a bit afraid I might fail. And I'm really good at computer programming but this overly logical job is pissing me off more and more. Maybe it's just the people I work with currently but I feel it's more than.
Yesterday I had a dream where my friend where trying to fight/kill me and another night I was taking picture of a female friend of mine (hot).
I'm still fighting some stuff internally but I'm getting clearer every day.
