05-23-2014, 10:09 PM
day 4: I went over to my friends house and jut chilled it started off well, but then he got too into his game and I got all needy all of a sudden. I was wanting attention, to do something, go out, have fun but he wanted to just play his game. I sat there for a good hour all needy and shit asking him if he wants to go to camping next month and etc. The reason I say I was being needy is cause me and him aren't in the best terms, we didn't talk for a whole year at one point and we used to be best friends, now it just seems like we use eachother to waste time instead of real friendship. I want to make new friends but either There arent many ppl like me in this small city or I just don't know how to make new friends. I went home after, and I was being needy again, messaging a bunch of girls on pof, to see if they'd hang out..even girls I wasn't really attarcted to...I was just looking to spend time with someone didn't want to be alone on a friday night. Ended up, I tapped on it a bit, then went and bought a whole large pizza and ate it to myself..damn...I want to get in shape, but food is just too delicious..I start my second job soon at the gym, I'm sure that will be a game changer for me.